Wednesday, January 23, 2019

The Beginning of A Journey


This is just the beginning...
Almost 3 months passed since I wrote anything in this blog, I have promised you 
to write articles on the topic that you guys requested but I haven't had the chance and time to write, 
I am sorry, I will try my best. If... possible. InshaAllah. Hehe. 

This post will mark the beginning of my study journey in South Korea. By January 18th I've officially finished my Korean Language Training Program at Silla University. Yes, I've graduated! Alhamdulillah. But this is not the end, at all. Instead, this is the beginning of the real journey. Soon enough I will start my undergraduate studies on Spring Semester at Korea University, Seoul. I will leave Busan (that has become my second hometown now I guess!) and move to Seoul by mid-February InshaAllah.

A lot of things happened in 2018, the good and the bad. I am feeling so grateful that I have met wonderful and amazing GKS (Global Korea Scholarship) friends at Silla University: 36 people from 32 different countries. We came from various cultures and backgrounds, we may not always like each other and have the same opinions about everything but we learned how to respect and appreciate each other's cultures and values despite our differences. They are all amazing people, I learned about their pasts and the journeys that they have been through but managed to survive until they became the person they are today. We all have strengths and weaknesses, we may not be perfect but that's what differentiates us from one another. And I am feeling so happy that I got the chance to learn about their lives, personal values, and way of thinking.

When I look back at my life again I realize how lucky and blessed I am because of this opportunity. I really am grateful and InshaAllah will not regret my decision of coming to Korea despite the challenges that I have to face in order to survive. Life in Korea may not be easy, but this is where I learn how to be responsible and get out of my comfort zone in order to grow. Oh, and I am 20 now, it might be young for some people and old for some other people. But for me, I've always reminded myself that "If today is your last day, then you are old already.", so don't wait until you're old because old age is not promised. The present is the only thing that we have right now, so make sure that we don't waste it! #selfreminder :)

Tuesday, October 09, 2018

Sail, Shore, and Ocean

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Yeongdo-daegyo, Busan, South Korea
Thursday on the beginning of October was a well-spent night under the columns of light in South Korea. The weather was cold and stinging but Autumn is still yet to come. You told me that the sailing was delayed due to this dangerous weather, I remembered how excited you were about the idea of coming back home for a few days. And that time you asked me one more time if we could meet to spend some time around before typhoon hits Busan, or before your months worth of sailing. 


Winds and waves,

Shore and ocean,

Buildings and bridges,


All that above remind me of how you talked about your agony and hardship that you have been through all these years. About the pain that you bury inside your heart over and over again by trying to let it pass one more time. About your fear of future and your own definition of happiness. Three hours of conversation passed by like a warm breeze in a tranquil restaurant near the city lights. “You know what? There are two reasons that make me happy today, guess!” you exclaimed in, carving a big smile.

“Ummm. I think I know,” I said, “First, because you got day-offs from sailing before you get a further announcement about the typhoon effect. Second... because you can eat raw fish today?” Moving my eyebrows as I pointed out at the plate of salmon and tuna in front of us, grabbed another salmon and dipped in the salted-oil sauce. 

You told me before, it has been a long time since you ate raw fish. But suddenly you laughed hard as if you have been given all the freedom you can have in this world. “The first thing is correct,” you smiled once again, letting out a sigh so freely as if all the burden on your shoulder has been swept away. “The second is because I got to talk with you about everything today. Thank you, I am very happy today.” 

And suddenly my heart is at ease,
at least I know how it felt like,
to be able to bring someone’s smile back,
even just for a while.


Then you took me for a walk to a beautiful scene that I have never seen before, well I might have seen it but not this way. Not on this rainy day. I have never walked to the shore on a rainy day, on typhoon weather. No, not at all, not once in my life.

“I am afraid of the sea; the depth of the ocean. It’s scary.” I said and you laughed.

“There's nothing to be afraid of."

"Well, I can't swim!" you laughed again, now mocking me.

"I can swim." so what? It doesn't help me either way. Sea is scary. No further interruption. "I love the sound of the sea, it’s relaxing. I used to go here to swim when I was a kid," you stopped and pointed afar, "Do you see the green and red lights near the lighthouse?” I nodded, “that’s the navigation for ships. Look at those ships there.” 

You kept on pointing your finger like a 6 year-old-kid to all the objects that you can name one by one across the bridge enthusiastically, explained it passionately as if your life is revolved around them, although it's true. Your life is revolved around them. 

Now I have seen the sea when it’s stormy and wild; or when suddenly it’s quiet and serene. I have listened to the sound of waves crashing the rocks across the lane that we walked in along the shore. I have felt the difference of the vivid lights of skyscrapers and the raging waves that were separated by the bridge. I have noticed how the green and red lights were meant to be something important to the world that you live in. 

But the bottom line is that I can't see the ocean the way it used to be, for I realized that everything has turned into something meaningful and beautiful. At least not in my life, but maybe somebody else's life.

And maybe, too, this world is the only place 
where I get the chance to learn about people from a wider perspective 
and be less judgemental about other people's life.


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p.s:
This is how I usually express my gratitude to my friends, by learning from their life and building new perspectives. :) Thank you for such experience!

Sunday, September 23, 2018

[Comment here!] Blog post request & ideas

Helloooo.

Recently, I have been receiving a lot of requests and blog post ideas through Instagram and emails. I already took notes and planned to write as soon as I have time and collect material ๐Ÿ“ InshaAllah soon. Anyway, thank you so so much for your kindest words, loves, and supports you gave. I might not express it pretty well in my replies (due to the amount of happiness I felt in one go!), I was overwhelmed but it DOES touch my heart :') heheee. Send my loves back to y'all!

I was wondering if some of you have any ideas or request as well, please comment down below the things that you most curious about. Anything. And anonymous is allowed. So, feel free to say anything. I will try my best to give you the best information or opinions (if needed). Even if you feel like you already requested via dm or smth, you can comment here again. I am afraid I have forgotten......some. hehe. sorry. 



Love,
Febby Aurora xx

Saturday, September 08, 2018

Soul...mate?

Prophet (pbuh) said: Souls are like crowds which gather together. 
The ones who met before get along well. 
The ones who did not meet before, cannot get along very well and separate.” 
(Bukhari, Anbiya, 2; Muslim, Birr, 159; Abu Dawud, Adab, 19). 

To: the unknown

Your soul color shall be a deep dark blue with a hint of silver. Your true colors are interchangeable, a collection of complexities that I will never fully comprehend.
It will be free and not vulnerable;
the rockets of desire;
sincere but complex. 
It will attract my mind that is only captured by the uncommon and s o l e l y individual. The few ones who are willing to drag their mind out of this world and go beyond the limit. My eyes would have seen a lot of things, from the way your words shall ignite my own to the way you hide away your crown. Your thoughts are deep and I beseech. Through you, I will find pieces of myself that were once tied with yours before we were born in this world. We might not know yet, but the love remains old and e c h o e s in the world before lifetimes. 

But all that matters is that someday I will find out that you have grown more than I ever had since all the years before we meet. And you deserve a whole lot more in the future that has been written only for the soul that remains untouched and truthful. Your soul is beautiful. And you should know that my prayers are for thou, the heart has been longing for.

[04.28 am, dorm room, full of thoughts]



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p.s:  idih baper amat abis makan apa w. 
oh iya makan selai kacang. nga nyambung biar hehe maap.
ngatau inspirasi darimana. nulis aja.

Wednesday, September 05, 2018

[Link Download] KGSP-Undergraduate 2019!

Announcement!

Guidelines KGSP 2019 for Undergraduate Studies (via Embassy, University Track, and Associate Degree) has been released.
For guidelines and more information click:

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NIIED
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Please read the guidelines and available informations first before asking!
KGSP Grantee’s blogs link are available on the sidebar of this blog as well.
Best of luck!!

Saturday, September 01, 2018

Spend five minutes to watch this video :)

Assalamualaikum peace be upon you,

Hello it’s me. I don’t know who you are, the one who passed by this post,
but I am very sure that Allah wants you to know this message.

I just want you to spend your 5 minutes to watch this video. Just a little time to invest, not that much. Look, ponder, and reflect how this person’s heart is attached to Allah. I hope you can take something to learn from it :)


Have a good day and may Allah bless you๐Ÿ–ค

Sunday, August 26, 2018

Prayers

Sometimes I wonder,
whose prayers has been granted by Allah
to the point that I can achieve what I have achieved right now.

If I were only relying on my own deeds and efforts,
I would never deserve everything
and anything that I have today.

Sometimes I wonder,
if I am deserving
of all the prayers that my mom always recites for me
in secrets at day and night.

Even if I dedicate my whole life
to payback what she always did to me,
I would forever be incapable
of doing the exact same thing.

For the prayers that reached the heavens,
knocked the door of His abundant mercy
For the prayers that we are aware or unaware of,
known or unknown.

For the people whose prayers are sincere,
who constantly prays to our ummah in silence,
know that even if no one acknowledges you
Allah knows, and that should be enough for us.

He has blessed us with so many things
that we didn't even pray for
He has protected us from so many things
we didn't know about.

For the people whose heart is attached to Allah,
for those who are content with our religion
I wish that Allah will bless you with His mercy,
love and guidance,
and anything that you deserve
in this dunya and hereafter.


[August 26th, 2018. 2.16 a.m, Busan Al Fatah Masjid]

Thursday, August 23, 2018

Summer Vacation: Busan and Jeju with my Aunt and Cousin!

By the time we ate it, we just stare at each other in silence.... “omg.” “omg.” “wait. OMG hoW COME THIS IS SO GOOD” “like sushi!!!!” “Omg. What is this taste.” “I don’t know but it’s just amazing" 

My summer vacation started on 20th July 2018, I spent a few days traveling around Busan and hanging out with my friends. On Wednesday, 26th July 2018, my cousin and aunt happened to visit Korea so I picked them up in Busan Station and headed to the hotel near Jagalchi Market around 2 p.m. For your information, it was sooo hot in Korea. Waaaay hotter than in Indonesia I swear!! It’s so humid and the heat-wave is unbelievable, when you’re going outside the room it’s like a blazing fire splashed on your face and you will sweat in no time. I thought Indonesia is hot enough, hotter than any other countries, turns out Korea is way hotter during summer.

~ BUSAN ~
Then we were roaming around BIFF Square Nampo-dong in front of Jagalchi Market and I was researching for seafood and halal foods near the place. Just went there once for eating Indonesian bakso a few weeks ago so I didn’t really know the place, but it is quite a famous place. So I found a restaurant with good reviews in Naver, thousands of reviews saying that it’s worth to visit the place! The place called Busan Huet Jib ๋ถ€์‚ฐํšŸ์ง‘, Jagalchi, and they served seafood including octopus, shrimp, seafood stew, and some weird kinds of seafood that I can’t even look at it. Hahahaha.

My cousin was yearning for sannakji ์‚ฐ๋‚™์ง€ , it’s the famous lived octopus dish where you can find the octopus still moving around in the plate. Well, it's dead. Don't worry it’s clean and dead, the head is already removed too, just the legs left, but they have this motion something I don’t know. After a few minutes, they stopped moving. For some people, it might be gross, but it was okay, just like sushi actually. It tastes like... an octopus. They put olive oil and some small cubed veggies to make it.. presentable? However it was quite expensive, it costs around 15.000 won for a small plate (one baby octopus!). We also ordered two cheese fried big shrimp, haha I don’t know the name, but it was deliciouussss. Love it so much! Oh and seafood stew. It was nice as well. After that, we bought Hotteok and eat some street foods near the place. Hotteok ํ˜ธ๋–ก is a hand-sized Korean pancake filled with cinnamon, brown sugar, honey, and the best part... chopped variety of nuts!!

The next day, we ate lunch in my favorite restaurant near Suan Station to eat Cukkumi ์ฃผ๊พธ๋ฏธ. It is a fried octopus with some sauces I don’t know what but it tastes like Satay alias Sate, you name it. It comes with a light cheese pizza where you can dip in the sauce. Tastes amazing!!! They said they liked it so much and by far the best Korean dish that they like.

A few moments later, my cousin asked me “oh they served ganjang gejang ๊ฐ„์žฅ๊ฒŒ์žฅ, have you ever tried it?” “What? What is that?” “It’s a blue crab marinated in soy sauce!!! You didn’t know?” “No, never heard of it.” “Shall we order?? I really want to try it!” “Sure!” , then we ordered one for 12.000 won. It was.. weird. By the time we ate it, we just stare at each other in silence.... “omg.” “omg.” “OMG THIS IS SO GOOD” “like sushi!!!!” “Omg. What is this taste.” “I don’t know but it’s just amazing.”. So our favorite Korean dish now: 1. Ganjang gejang ๊ฐ„์žฅ ๊ฒŒ์žฅ and 2. Cukkumi ์ฃผ๊พธ๋ฏธ.

Tuesday, August 14, 2018

Irony

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“The capacity to learn is a gift; The ability to learn is a skill; the willingness to learn is a choice” -Brian Herbert
Now that I see my country in a wider perspective from a far distance. I still could not fully comprehend why people keep on making war between each other, debating certain topics that should not be debated at all. A lot of people talk in a loud voice without knowledge claiming that what they do is to educate people yet it was all nothing but ignorance and an empty glass. They refuse to understand in the very first place.

I do not expect people to agree or believe what I believe, but I do expect people to do their own research. Everyone has a different background, moral, and motives which alter the way one sees something to put the pieces together for themselves. Well, it's not only about having the right answer, for it could be biased, but also asking the right question. 
"There is simple ignorance, not knowing, and willful ignorance that refuses to know, that covers the light of knowledge with the dark blanket of bias." -Elizabeth Moon
Thinking about it again, it is true that: sometimes, you just have to play the role of a fool to fool the fool who thinks they are fooling you. Let's just play it cool. As Mark Twain said, it is better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool than to open it and remove all doubt.

I don't know if it's intelligence, 
or arrogance.

Well, I don't know, maybe I am a fool.

Sunday, August 05, 2018

My Favorite Youtube Channel (Islamic)

Assalamu'alaikum!
Halo :-) Peace be upon you.
Kali ini aku mau share channel youtube favoritku sejak dahulu kala dan alhamdulillah sampai sekarang. Semoga bermanfaat dan bisa menambah ilmu! Sebenernya pengen banget share banyak banget cuma banyak banget jadi bingung (?) hahaha lol.
"The seeking of knowledge is obligatory for every Muslim." -Hadith At Tirmidhi  
"It is not the knowledge who should come to you, it is you who should come to the knowledge."-Imam Malik  
"Islam is knowledge based. The more you know it, you'll love it. The less you know about it, the more you will dwindle." -Mufti Ismail Menk  
"The more knowledge (of deen) you have the more humble you should be. Instead, you are becoming judgemental." -Nouman Ali Khan
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Btw itu emang yang ada contoh videonya cuma dua wkwk takutnya nanti kepanjangan, langsung klik tulisannya aja yaa terus silahkan explore sendiri. Kebetulan emang itu channelnya bahasa Inggris semua, gatau kenapa sih soalnya saya lebih prefer style da'wah dan selingan jokesnya beliau-beliau.  Favorit saya selama ini sih Ust. Nouman Ali Khan, Mufti Ismail Menk, Tim Humble, Yasir Qadhi, dsb. Tapi bukan berarti yang dr Indonesia buruk ya, saya juga kadang dengerin Ust. Khalid Basalamah atau Ust. Adi Hidayat kok. 

Oh iya mau share aja, sebisa mungkin habis dapat ilmu itu ditulis atau bikin rangkumannya karena dengan begitu inshaAllah ilmu yang didapat jadi lebih nempel. Kalaupun lupa, sewaktu-waktu bisa dibuka dan pelajari lagi, apalagi kita sebagai manusia iman sering naik turun jadi tetep harus di refresh ulang biar ilmunya gak ilang. :( Aku sendiri nyiapin satu buku khusus untuk ilmu-ilmu yang berkaitan dengan Islam, entah yang didapat dari kajian langsung, liqo, atau video-video kajian. 

Kebetulan kali ini lagi pake buku hadiah dari salah satu sahabat aku, Ninis, sebelum berangkat ke Korea. Barakallah fiik ya nis, semoga yang aku tulis di buku ini bisa jadi amal ke kamu juga :-)

nyolong dari ignya ninis.
maap yak males ngedit hahahah

Kalau bingung mulai dari mana, start from the topic that interest you the most or you're curious about. Kalau dulu sih karena aku ngerasanya sudah Islam, tapi nggak mengenal Allah dan Rasulnya. Ternyata setelah tau, dan sedikit-sedikit mempelajari... mashaAllah. Gak bisa dijelaskan dengan kata-kata #ea. Salah satu cerita yang selalu sukses bikin nangis sesenggukan itu kalau udah denger hadits dan cerita waktu Rasulullah saw meninggal dunia, yang dipikirin cuma umatnya, sedangkan kita? :'(


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Anas ibn Malik reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, "I wish I could meet my brothers." The Prophet's companions said, "Are we not your brothers?" The Prophet said, "You are my companions, but my brothers are those who have faith in me although they never saw me." Source: Musnad Ahmad 12169
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Dan kita emang manusia akhir zaman, gak heran sekarang banyak banget yang udah meninggalkan agama bahkan tidak percaya Tuhan, gak papa sih itu hak masing-masing toh gak bisa maksa juga. Tapi yang perlu diingat, you're responsible for yourself. So, whatever you do, remember that you're the only one who can help yourself.


p.s:
btw mau nanya nih, lebih prefer aku nulis pake bahasa Indonesia apa Inggris yak? Komen ya hahaha silent reader juga gapapa sih :( wkwk.

Thursday, August 02, 2018

Korean Language Program: First Semester Finished!

It's August already!!!!!! 
wHOA, I remember I arrived in Korea on 19th February, it means I have been here for almost 6 months! It's my first time of being away from home in such a long time. I did finish my first semester of Korean Language Program at Silla University and currently on my vacation until September.

Does that mean you're going to College soon??
nO. Well, I don't know but I am a bit pessimistic because I didn't do well on TOPIK 56th. I don't think I can get level 5/6 soon hahahaa it's so hard. I don't know, I am still waiting for the results.

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If you're a KGSP Scholar, this 1 year Korean Language Training is obligatory before going to your real university unless you already have TOPIK level 5 or 6 upon application. The university for Korean language program is randomly picked by NIIED, you can't choose nor it can be changed. We study from Monday to Friday from 9 a.m to 4 p.m (just like school T_T) except on Friday the class finishes at 1 p.m. We will have both regular class and TOPIK class, in Silla University we use Korean books from Yonsei University. Meanwhile, for the TOPIK class, we will solve previous TOPIK questions which the teachers already compiled into one book. We have exams and homework as well. 

During the Korean Language Program the schools will also provide us with cultural activity outside class so that we can experience Korean culture by ourselves, and of course, to cure the boredom of learning Korean 24/7!!! Just kidding, I didn't study that much :( Well, the results speak because my exam result wasn't really good compared to my friends who studied a lot. hehe. I should study harder next time. hehe.

When you first arrived, they will conduct an exam to know your Korean language skills, like a mock exam? So they can classify you into certain classes. In my year, there were 3 classes, from A to C. The two classes were for the beginners, started from the very beginning: hangeul. And my class is for the intermediate. My class has 12 GKS students from very diverse countries: Indonesia, Singapore, Turkey, Kazakhstan, Kyrzygstan, Turkmenistan, Egypt, Tajikistan, Mongolia, Iran, and Chile. They're all already sooo good in Korean, except me, my speaking, writing, and reading are sucks trust me I am the worst at class. 

The class will be conducted in Korean, 99,95% in Korean because most of the teachers can't speak English but some of them know a little. I was soooo confused at first because my speaking and listening skill are so bad. But alhamdulillah I think I am getting used to it. The beginner classes are also taught in Korean, sometimes English. Don't worry!! The teachers often used motions when explaining things.

My friends helped me so much by talking to me in Korean and sometimes gave me a piece of advice to not to be afraid of speaking and sharing my thoughts. I am shy, ehehehe. And usually, I don't talk that much either so it's the hardezzzzt. But whatever. Right now I am in a state where my Indonesian is so weird, my English is so degrading (I speak weirdly now.), and my Korean is getting nowhere huhuuhuhuuuu.

For those who are asking, will my courses in University be in the Korean language? 
nOOO. Hahahaha. I don't want to :-) 
I love English. My courses will be in English and yes I still need to attend Korean Language Program because it will come in handy for daily life and of course meeting and talking with Koreans. At least, if you speak a good Korean, they wouldn't underestimate you that much. ahahahaa.


Sunday, July 29, 2018

tenebris

when you get to know me,
you will enter a galaxy
with worlds of endless

passion & affection

hopes & dreams
burning desires


also sometimes 
you will stare into a black hole,
but don't be scared by my demons
when they welcome you with

paradox & uncertainty 

coldness & confusion
long-lost mind.