Tuesday, October 09, 2018

Sail, Shore, and Ocean

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Yeongdo-daegyo, Busan, South Korea
Thursday on the beginning of October was a well-spent night under the columns of light in South Korea. The weather was cold and stinging but Autumn is still yet to come. You told me that the sailing was delayed due to this dangerous weather, I remembered how excited you were about the idea of coming back home for a few days. And that time you asked me one more time if we could meet to spend some time around before typhoon hits Busan, or before your months worth of sailing. 

Winds and waves,

Shore and ocean,

Buildings and bridges,

All that above remind me of how you talked about your agony and hardship that you have been through all these years. About the pain that you bury inside your heart over and over again by trying to let it pass one more time. About your fear of future and your own definition of happiness. Three hours of conversation passed by like a warm breeze in a tranquil restaurant near the city lights. “You know what? There are two reasons that make me happy today, guess!” you exclaimed in, carving a big smile.

“Ummm. I think I know,” I said, “First, because you got day-offs from sailing before you get a further announcement about the typhoon effect. Second... because you can eat raw fish today?” Moving my eyebrows as I pointed out at the plate of salmon and tuna in front of us, grabbed another salmon and dipped in the salted-oil sauce. 

You told me before, it has been a long time since you ate raw fish. But suddenly you laughed hard as if you have been given all the freedom you can have in this world. “The first thing is correct,” you smiled once again, letting out a sigh so freely as if all the burden on your shoulder has been swept away. “The second is because I got to talk with you about everything today. Thank you, I am very happy today.” And thanks to you too, you're almost like a brother to me.

And suddenly my heart is at ease,
at least I know how it felt like,
to be able to bring someone’s smile back,
even just for a while.

Then you took me for a walk to a beautiful scene that I have never seen before, well I might have seen it but not this way. Not on this rainy day. I have never walked to the shore on a rainy day, on a typhoon weather. No, not at all, not once in my life.

“I am afraid of the sea; the depth of the ocean. It’s scary.” I said and you laughed.

“There's nothing to be afraid of."

"Well, I can't swim!" you laughed again, now mocking me.

"I can swim." so what? It doesn't help me either way. Sea is scary. No further interruption. "I love the sound of the sea, it’s relaxing. I used to go here to swim when I was a kid," you stopped and pointed afar, "Do you see the green and red lights near the lighthouse?” I nodded, “that’s the navigation for ships. Look at those ships there.” 

You kept on pointing your finger like a 6 year-old-kid to all the objects that you can name one by one across the bridge enthusiastically, explained it passionately as if your life is revolved around them, although it's true. Your life is revolved around them. 

Now I have seen the sea when it’s stormy and wild; or when suddenly it’s quiet and serene. I have listened to the sound of waves crashing the rocks across the lane that we walked in along the shore. I have felt the difference of the vivid lights of skyscrapers and the raging waves that were separated by the bridge. I have noticed how the green and red lights were meant to be something important to the world that you live in. 

But the bottom line is that I can't see the ocean the way it used to be, for I realized that everything has turned into something meaningful and beautiful. At least not in my life, but maybe somebody else's life.

And maybe, too, this world is the only place 
where I get the chance to learn about people from a wider perspective 
and be less judgemental about other people's life.

๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ์›๋ž˜ ์‚ถ์—์„œ ์ž๊ธฐ ๊ฒฝํ—˜์ด๋‚˜ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์˜ ๊ฒฝํ—˜์„ ํ†ตํ•ด์„œ ๋ฐฐ์› ๊ณ  ์ด๋Ÿฐ ๊ธ€์„ ์ผ์–ด.
์š”์ฆ˜์—” ์˜ค๋น ๊ฐ€ ๋‚˜ํ•œํ…Œ ์ง„์งœ ์˜ค๋น ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ๋งŽ์€ ๊ตํ›ˆ์„ ์คฌ๊ฑฐ๋“ . ๊ทธ๋™์•ˆ ๊ณ ์ƒ ๋งŽ์•˜์–ด!
์กฐ๊ธˆ๋งŒ ์ฐธ์•„, ๊ฑฐ์˜ ๋‹ค ์™”์–ด. ์ž˜ ๊ฐ”๋‹ค์™€!
This is how I usually express my gratitude. :)
Thank you for such experience!

Sunday, September 23, 2018

[Comment here!] Blog post request & ideas


Recently, I have been receiving a lot of requests and blog post ideas through Instagram and emails. I already took notes and planned to write as soon as I have time and collect material ๐Ÿ“ InshaAllah soon. Anyway, thank you so so much for your kindest words, loves, and supports you gave. I might not express it pretty well in my replies (due to the amount of happiness I felt in one go!), I was overwhelmed but it DOES touch my heart :') heheee. Send my loves back to y'all!

I was wondering if some of you have any ideas or request as well, please comment down below the things that you most curious about. Anything. And anonymous is allowed. So, feel free to say anything. I will try my best to give you the best information or opinions (if needed). Even if you feel like you already requested via dm or smth, you can comment here again. I am afraid I have forgotten......some. hehe. sorry. 

Febby Aurora xx

Saturday, September 08, 2018


Prophet (pbuh) said: Souls are like crowds which gather together. 
The ones who met before get along well. 
The ones who did not meet before, cannot get along very well and separate.” 
(Bukhari, Anbiya, 2; Muslim, Birr, 159; Abu Dawud, Adab, 19). 

To: the unknown

Your soul color shall be a deep dark blue with a hint of silver. Your true colors are interchangeable, a collection of complexities that I will never fully comprehend.
It will be free and not vulnerable;
the rockets of desire;
sincere but complex. 
It will attract my mind that is only captured by the uncommon and s o l e l y individual. The few ones who are willing to drag their mind out of this world and go beyond the limit. My eyes would have seen a lot of things, from the way your words shall ignite my own to the way you hide away your crown. Your thoughts are deep and I beseech. Through you, I will find pieces of myself that were once tied with yours before we were born in this world. We might not know yet, but the love remains old and e c h o e s in the world before lifetimes. 

But all that matters is that someday I will find out that you have grown more than I ever had since all the years before we meet. And you deserve a whole lot more in the future that has been written only for the soul that remains untouched and truthful. Your soul is beautiful. And you should know that my prayers are for thou, the heart has been longing for.

[04.28 am, dorm room, full of thoughts]

p.s:  idih baper amat abis makan apa w. 
oh iya makan selai kacang. nga nyambung biar hehe maap.
ngatau inspirasi darimana. nulis aja.

Wednesday, September 05, 2018

[Link Download] KGSP-Undergraduate 2019!


Guidelines KGSP 2019 for Undergraduate Studies (via Embassy, University Track, and Associate Degree) has been released.
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Saturday, September 01, 2018

Spend five minutes to watch this video :)

Assalamualaikum peace be upon you,

Hello it’s me. I don’t know who you are, the one who passed by this post,
but I am very sure that Allah wants you to know this message.

I just want you to spend your 5 minutes to watch this video. Just a little time to invest, not that much. Look, ponder, and reflect how this person’s heart is attached to Allah. I hope you can take something to learn from it :)

Have a good day and may Allah bless you๐Ÿ–ค

Sunday, August 26, 2018


Sometimes I wonder,
whose prayers has been granted by Allah
to the point that I can achieve what I have achieved right now.

If I were only relying on my own deeds and efforts,
I would never deserve everything
and anything that I have today.

Sometimes I wonder,
if I am deserving
of all the prayers that my mom always recites for me
in secrets at day and night.

Even if I dedicate my whole life
to payback what she always did to me,
I would forever be incapable
of doing the exact same thing.

For the prayers that reached the heavens,
knocked the door of His abundant mercy
For the prayers that we are aware or unaware of,
known or unknown.

For the people whose prayers are sincere,
who constantly prays to our ummah in silence,
know that even if no one acknowledges you
Allah knows, and that should be enough for us.

He has blessed us with so many things
that we didn't even pray for
He has protected us from so many things
we didn't know about.

For the people whose heart is attached to Allah,
for those who are content with our religion
I wish that Allah will bless you with His mercy,
love and guidance,
and anything that you deserve
in this dunya and hereafter.

[August 26th, 2018. 2.16 a.m, Busan Al Fatah Masjid]

Thursday, August 23, 2018

Summer Vacation: Busan and Jeju with my Aunt and Cousin!

By the time we ate it, we just stare at each other in silence.... “omg.” “omg.” “wait. OMG hoW COME THIS IS SO GOOD” “like sushi!!!!” “Omg. What is this taste.” “I don’t know but it’s just amazing" 

My summer vacation started on 20th July 2018, I spent a few days traveling around Busan and hanging out with my friends. On Wednesday, 26th July 2018, my cousin and aunt happened to visit Korea so I picked them up in Busan Station and headed to the hotel near Jagalchi Market around 2 p.m. For your information, it was sooo hot in Korea. Waaaay hotter than in Indonesia I swear!! It’s so humid and the heat-wave is unbelievable, when you’re going outside the room it’s like a blazing fire splashed on your face and you will sweat in no time. I thought Indonesia is hot enough, hotter than any other countries, turns out Korea is way hotter during summer.

Then we were roaming around BIFF Square Nampo-dong in front of Jagalchi Market and I was researching for seafood and halal foods near the place. Just went there once for eating Indonesian bakso a few weeks ago so I didn’t really know the place, but it is quite a famous place. So I found a restaurant with good reviews in Naver, thousands of reviews saying that it’s worth to visit the place! The place called Busan Huet Jib ๋ถ€์‚ฐํšŸ์ง‘, Jagalchi, and they served seafood including octopus, shrimp, seafood stew, and some weird kinds of seafood that I can’t even look at it. Hahahaha.

My cousin was yearning for sannakji ์‚ฐ๋‚™์ง€ , it’s the famous lived octopus dish where you can find the octopus still moving around in the plate. Well, it's dead. Don't worry it’s clean and dead, the head is already removed too, just the legs left, but they have this motion something I don’t know. After a few minutes, they stopped moving. For some people, it might be gross, but it was okay, just like sushi actually. It tastes like... an octopus. They put olive oil and some small cubed veggies to make it.. presentable? However it was quite expensive, it costs around 15.000 won for a small plate (one baby octopus!). We also ordered two cheese fried big shrimp, haha I don’t know the name, but it was deliciouussss. Love it so much! Oh and seafood stew. It was nice as well. After that, we bought Hotteok and eat some street foods near the place. Hotteok ํ˜ธ๋–ก is a hand-sized Korean pancake filled with cinnamon, brown sugar, honey, and the best part... chopped variety of nuts!!

The next day, we ate lunch in my favorite restaurant near Suan Station to eat Cukkumi ์ฃผ๊พธ๋ฏธ. It is a fried octopus with some sauces I don’t know what but it tastes like Satay alias Sate, you name it. It comes with a light cheese pizza where you can dip in the sauce. Tastes amazing!!! They said they liked it so much and by far the best Korean dish that they like.

A few moments later, my cousin asked me “oh they served ganjang gejang ๊ฐ„์žฅ๊ฒŒ์žฅ, have you ever tried it?” “What? What is that?” “It’s a blue crab marinated in soy sauce!!! You didn’t know?” “No, never heard of it.” “Shall we order?? I really want to try it!” “Sure!” , then we ordered one for 12.000 won. It was.. weird. By the time we ate it, we just stare at each other in silence.... “omg.” “omg.” “OMG THIS IS SO GOOD” “like sushi!!!!” “Omg. What is this taste.” “I don’t know but it’s just amazing.”. So our favorite Korean dish now: 1. Ganjang gejang ๊ฐ„์žฅ ๊ฒŒ์žฅ and 2. Cukkumi ์ฃผ๊พธ๋ฏธ.

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ganjang gejang
After that, we went to Gamcheon Cultural Village ๊ฐ์ฒœ๋ฌธํ™”๋งˆ์„. I went there before during my vacation in 2017, but it was cold that we can enjoy walking around for a few hours unlike this time, we barely stayed for an hour because it was soooo hot. After that we continue our journey to Seomyeon, it is a shopping place like Myeongdong in Seoul, to visit Potid Cafe. It is a Harry Potter themed cafe which served I don’t know maybe coffees and cookies. We just went in and snapped a few pictures but didn’t eat inside because it was crowded. The waiting list reached 10+ and we just left.

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potid cafe seomyeon
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gwangalli beach
We came back to the Hotel for Asr’ prayer and took a quick bath because we were all sweating. Just 3 hours outside. Then we went to Gwangalli beach, just to enjoy the time. Oh and by the way, it was a supermoon or blood moon that time, I forgot, but the view was amazing but I couldn’t take a good picture of it. Our eyes are the best, alhamdulillahh!

~ JEJU ~
As soon as we arrived in Jeju, our friends picked us up and we had a unique dinner in Ghosthouse Restaurant. We ate seafood!!! Always. But this time is like...MASSIVE kinds of seafood. Including abalone and several clams that I have never heard of. It's kinda expensive but I don't pay so good news hehehehhee. ANYWAY I actually am allergic to seafoods especially shrimp... but I love it so much much much!! I even ordered Shrimp burgers whenever I go to Mom’s Touch or Lotteria because.. I love it. And uh, with this big portion of seafoods you know what happened!? My face and lips swelled and felt itchy :( but it was worth it tho!!

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massive!!! it's around 120,000 KRW for 6 people.
we finished it all!

We stayed in our friends' guesthouse in Gosan something, and it was sooo beautiful, I mean the interior and etc! We ate home-made cooking in the morning because our friends used to work and live in Indonesia so they kinda miss Indonesian foods.

On the next day, we tried a kayak or canoe and I got wet all over my body!! T_T my poor skill. Then we also visited Innisfree Jeju House and tried Osulloc green tea ice cream, uh it was amazing. delicious. Then we ate pizza, they always brought us to famous places that once visited by reality show or something because I found pictures and signed-paper of celebrities from "2 days 1 night", "infinity challenge", and "running man". But I am not really a reality show fan... I do watch but sometimes. Not crazy about it hehee. OH! and I have a new favorite now!! IT'S AN ORANGE-PEELED PIZZA. So it's basically a pizza with Jeju orange topping. I forgot the name!! But I love it hehe. Then we continued our journey to Seogwipo art market where you can find a lot of artworks to fulfill your thirst for aesthetics.

home-cooked meals!

seolhyun AOA!! can I have her body please



that famous pizza place

famous stray cat you can find on Instagram!

Tuesday, August 14, 2018


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“The capacity to learn is a gift; The ability to learn is a skill; the willingness to learn is a choice” -Brian Herbert
Now that I see my country in a wider perspective from a far distance. I still could not fully comprehend why people keep on making war between each other, debating certain topics that should not be debated at all. A lot of people talk in a loud voice without knowledge claiming that what they do is to educate people yet it was all nothing but ignorance and an empty glass. They refuse to understand in the very first place.

I do not expect people to agree or believe what I believe, but I do expect people to do their own research. Everyone has a different background, moral, and motives which alter the way one sees something to put the pieces together for themselves. Well, it's not only about having the right answer, for it could be biased, but also asking the right question. 
"There is simple ignorance, not knowing, and willful ignorance that refuses to know, that covers the light of knowledge with the dark blanket of bias." -Elizabeth Moon
Thinking about it again, it is true that: sometimes, you just have to play the role of a fool to fool the fool who thinks they are fooling you. Let's just play it cool. As Mark Twain said, it is better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool than to open it and remove all doubt.

I don't know if it's intelligence, 
or arrogance.

Well, I don't know, maybe I am a fool.