Saturday, June 16, 2018

Ramadan in Korea pt.2 : The best gift on the 29th night of Ramadhan

Assalamu'alaikum! Happy Eid Mubarak. 
May Allah always bless you throughout the year!

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I still can't believe it that Ramadhan has left us :'( ๋ผ๋งˆ๋‹จ ์•„์ฃผ ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ์›Œ... But alhamdulillah, as always, Allah let me taste the beauty of this holy Ramadhan with the beautiful soul, people, and atmosphere although I live miles away from home. My first Ramadhan far from family. Memorable yet I still miss my family and friends. The foods are no different, but the people... no one can replace our family, right?

Anyways, if you haven't read my first post about Ramadhan in Korea please click this link! In the last two weeks of Ramadhan, Allah opened my eyes to learn and discover about other Surah in the Qur'an. Ramadan is the perfect month if you want to get closer to Allah and the Qur'an because this is the month of revelation and He rewards us with soooo many glad tidings and rewards. Masha'Allah. My favourite Surah always revolves around Ar Rahman, Al Kahfi, An Naba, and Al Mulk, but ever since I listened and learned more about Al Qalam and Az Zumar... my heart just dropped. Even Surah Al Fatihah... the mother of Surah, the first Surah that we memorized when we were 6 years old now feels different. Every time I read another Surah, jumped to the next verse, pondering about what Allah is trying to tell me makes me fall in love deeper and deeper. How can you not love the Qur'an when it is the only book where the Writer is fall in love with the reader?

“Islam began as something strange, and it shall return to being something strange

as it began, so give glad tidings to the strangers.” (Sahih Muslim)

This Ramadhan motivates me so much to learn the Arabic language, for Allah's sake Wallahi I am so jealous of the people who can speak and understand Arabic since they were born because in that way they would understand what the imam is reciting during Fardh prayer, Taraweeh prayer, and most important... the Witr du'a (prayer)! The Witr du'a mashaAllah dear brother and sister, people cried... people will cry rivers if only they knew the meaning. The Witr du'a should feel like...the detox of our soul? Pretty much. And Alhamdulillah... alhamdulillah for the blessings that Allah gave me, this Ramadhan got me realized that there is still a loooottt of things that I need to learn and discover. Yet...what I do is sleep. So many new goals and objective to achieve, I am so excited!!! Please keep me in your du'a xD heheheeeee

I am so jealous of the people beside me because they can cry during prayer, especially witr, to the point that I am so dedicated to look for Witr du'a with English translations on Youtube. And Wallahi mashaAllah I cried. Just wonder how would I feel if I can understand Arabic. MashaAllah what a beautiful du'a what a beautiful feelings :')))) Well this is just an example of witr dua, but wallahi wallahi so beautiful..........

Oh! I want to tell you one of the memorable days during this Ramadhan. So, on the 18th day of Ramadhan - 2nd of June, I went to Gimhae with GKS Muslim friends in Silla University: Amira, Ghazal, Rano, Fahd, Pranata, Normatjon, and Daler. We were planning to break our fast together alias buka bersama, this is our first time to break our fast together because we always did it separately or...I'll be in the masjid! We went by bus number 62 and took the train to Gimhae for 1 hour and half since 6.30 before arrived in Uzbek-Russian Restaurant. Oh anyway, it's in a different province but near Busan.

I was sitting beside Fahd in the train and talking about how much we love this deen and how grateful we are to be blessed with Islam. It is so beautiful. And we were talking about prophet Muhammad, especially the moment when Prophet Muhammad passed away yet he always thinks about his ummah. "Yaa Ummati...ya ummati...ya ummati....". And see ourselves? How many times in a day that we think about Prophet Muhammad. We talked about how we cried the first time we watched it, and whenever we watched it again and again, it always brings us to tears. Ya Allah... how I miss Rasulullah SAW... Allahumma Shalli Alaa Muhammad.

And you know, there is this famous hadith that we really love, and it should be enough for you to realize how much Prophet Muhammad cares, misses, and loves us. May Allah made us among the ummah of the Prophet Muhammad in the hereafter, aamiin.

Anas ibn Malik reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “I wish I could meet my brothers.” The Prophet’s companions said, “Are we not your brothers?” The Prophet said, “You are my companions, but my brothers are those who have faith in me although they never saw me.” Source: Musnad Aḥmad 12169. Grade: Hasan (fair) according to Al-Albani

Finally, we arrived in Gimhae just a couple of minutes after iftaar (sunset, maghrib. the time when Muslim breaks their fast). Me and Amira brought our dates and shared it with our starving friends. Hahahaha they ate it all! Then, after ordering some foods some of us prayed Maghrib prayer in congregation at a small Musholla (prayer room, smaller than mosque) near the restaurant. We got to eat Kebab, Samosa, and a lot of meat and lamb that I don't know the name of but the most important thing is it's halal and delicious!! We spent almost 100,000 won for one dinner, astaghfirullah but we have no choice because halal food is always expensive but whatever at least our heart is at ease and we don't do it everyday xD. After that, we took a walk at night and ate vanilla ice cream from Lotteria that only costs 500 won hahahaha #brokelife

We joookeeddd so much along the way, I am feeling like I have a family. Well, we often hang out with other friends too, but, maybe just maybe because we feel like we have this connection as one-ummah, as a Muslim, this feels....different. I don't know but I hope we can meet again together in Jannah and I prayed that Allah will guide them and makes it easier for them to practice and be proud of our religion. Insha'Allah.

"A Gift From Allah"
Allah answered my prayer on the 29th night of Ramadhan at 2 a.m during Qiyamul Lail. Alhamdulillah. I'd rather not tell you what it was, but this was the best gift that a humble slave could ever get from his Lord, his Master. I am writing this to keep myself reminded if someday I've forgotten about this :')

This Ramadhan was not perfect, but it left me a lot of lessons and make me realized upon every single blessing that Allah gave me. The atmosphere was amazing, even though I am miles away from being apart from my family and lovely friends. 2 hours journey back and forth from my dorm to the mosque that I've always trying to do whenever I have time. It feels miserable to remember that I only have to take 5 minutes walk to go to the mosque in Indonesia, few minutes walk to halal foods, those are one of the blessings that we tend to forget. This Ramadhan was not the best, but I have done my best. May He always bless us and give another chance to meet this beautiful month until next year.

Ramadan has left us, 
but don't let the lessons and positive changes it brought us leave from within us. 
This is not the end! You never know what little prayer/du'a can save you from the fire and admit you into jannah ๐ŸŒบ

Monday, June 11, 2018

KGSP - FAQ (Frequently Asked Questions)

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Halo. Berhubung masih banyak banget pertanyaan-pertanyaan berulang yang masuk di instagram, whatsapp, line tentang beasiswa KGSP aku jawab lewat blog aja ya. Jadi, KGSP adalah beasiswa yang diberikan oleh pemerintah Korea Selatan untuk pelajar dari seluruh dunia yang tertarik untuk melanjutkan studinya di Korsel. Beasiswa ini dibuka tiap tahun, bulan Februari untuk KGSP-Graduate dan bulan September untuk KGSP-Undergraduate. Beasiswa ini full dari tuition/biaya kuliah, biaya hidup per bulan biaya rumah sakit per bulan, dsb. Untuk liat keterangan lengkapnya coba download guidelines di web kedubes Korea atau


1. Dari NIIED kan disuruh 3 photocopies sedangkan kedubes minta 1 original file, jadi kita kirimnya ikut yang mana? 
Ikut sesuai peraturan kedubes, kirim 1 original file selama peraturan belum berubah.

2. Kk kmrn daftar univ dan jurusan apa aja? 
Jurusan International Studies di Korea University, Hankuk University of Foreign Studies (HUFS) dan Chung-Ang University. Alhamdulillah keterima di semua universitas dan aku pilih Korea University.

3. Grantees KGSP-U 2018 yang lain pilih jurusan apa?
Dua-duanya cowok pilih Materials Engineering.

4. Apply pake language proficiency apa aja? Kalau boleh tau nilainya berapa? 
Pakai both IELTS Academic dan TOPIK. TOPIK baru level 2, IELTSnya standar wkwk.

5. Kalo aku baru lulus taun 2018, bisa ikut KGSP-U 2019 gak? 
Enggak kalau lulus th 2018, harus  ikut tahun depan, 2019 di KGSP-U 2020. Syarat ikut KGSP harus lulus dari SMA dulu ya dan punya ijazah.

6. Aku mau ikut KGSP tapi aku udah kuliah di Indonesia, boleh nggak? 
Boleh, asal kamu belum lulus S1/punya gelar sarjana. Kemarin kebetulan aku juga udah kuliah selama beberapa bulan di salah satu PTN di Yogyakarta.

7. Proof of Citizenship yang di translate ke English apa aja ya? 
KK, KTP kamu+ortu, dan akte kelahiran.

8. Cari sworn translator dimana ya? Biayanya berapa? 
Bisa cari di web ini. Banyak banget macem-macem. Dari 45ribu-150ribu per lembar. 

9. Aku lihat KGSP grantee lain ada yang translate sendiri, itu boleh? 
Aku kurang tau, tapi kalau KGSP grantee lain ada yang bisa gitu, ya boleh aja.

10. Application formnya diketik atau tulis tangan? 
Semuanya diketik yaaa biar rapi.

11. Kak biasanya yg daftar berapa orang? Interview dihubungin berapa orang dari embassynya? Yang lolos berapa? 
Tahun 2017 ini katanya klo ga salah sekitar 489 pendaftar? Gatau juga, soalnya ga dikabarin. Interview kemarin ada 9 orang (3x kuota) sedangkan yang lolos 2nd round ada 3 orang (dan 1 waiting list)

12. Aku pengen daftar beasiswa KGSP tapi aku gabisa bahasa Inggris:( 
Bahasa Inggris itu penting banget karena dari apply, bikin essay, ngisi form, belajar bahasa Korea di Language Training Program, sampe kuliahnya kan pake bahasa Inggris. Jadi kalo gabisa bahasa Inggris gimana dong:(

13. Kak aku mau jurusan ini.... kira-kira yang bagus dimana ya? Kak Univ ini bagus gak ya?
Ya aku juga gatau:(( aku cuma tau tentang jurusanku aja. Jadiiii sebisa mungkin do your own research ya! Kepoin websitenya satu-satu hehe. 

14. Aku gapunya sertifikat bahasa apa-apa, kira-kira masih bisa lolos nggak ya?
Bisa aja.. KGSP 2017 dan salah satu grantee KGSP 2018 juga gada sertifikat bahasa. Mungkin ada hal yang menjual dan membuat pihak beasiswa tertarik sama kamu entah dari sertifikat lomba, pengalaman, essay, atau personality. Tapi kalau ada language proficiency lebih baik ya dan bisa menambah peluang kamu, karena waktu interview kemarin aja yang punya TOPIK ada 5 orang dan yang punya IELTS/TOEFL/TOEIC juga ada beberapa. Sebisa mungkin maksimalin di dokumen ya.

15. Menurut kamu apa sih yang bikin kamu terpilih dibanding peserta lain?
Aku sendiri gak nyangka bisa keterima, soalnya waktu interview ternyata pesaingnya keren-keren semua. Yang interview satu ruangan bareng aku kemarin juga bagus-bagus... aku juga gatau apa yang dilihat dari interviewer. Mungkin body language dan personality juga penting (walaupun sebenernya aku juga gatau bagusnya dimana hahaha), didukung sama dokumen, sertifikat, dan essay. Yang tau hanya pihak Kedubes dan NIIED wkwk.

16. Waktu interview kemarin gimana prosedurnya? Pake Bahasa Inggris atau Korea? Ditanyain apa aja?
Tahun kemarin embassy track satu ruangan langsung tiga orang dan dikasih pertanyaan secara bergilir sama tiga orang interviewer (satu orang Indonesia, dua orang Korea). Pake Bahasa Inggris, tapi kalo mau pake Korea juga boleh. Yang pasti pertanyaannya seputar tentang Korea, kenapa kamu pengen kuliah di Korea, motivasimu apa, seputar jurusan yang kamu pilih, dan tentang personality kamu.

17. Penghargaan kakak banyak? Kemarin sertifikat/awardsnya berhubungan sama jurusan nggak?
Lumayan. Enggak juga sih, gak nyambung sebenernya. Awardsku kebanyakan bidang physics engineering padahal apply jurusan sosial. Beberapa ada sih tentang writing competitions dan lomba bahasa tapi enggak banyak

18. Rata-rata rapor kk berapa?
Raporku biasa aja beneran deh. Aku kebanyakan bolos pas sma wkwkw. GPA 3,41/4 atau sekitar 85,25?

19. Gimana sih cara nulis essay? Tips nulis personal statement + study plan dong !
Be honest. Jujur aja. Ga ada acuan bener atau salah dalam menulis essay. Everyone has different path and journeys. As long as you're true to yourself and convince them that you deserve the scholarship, anything will do. Mungkin kamu bisa ceritain tentang pengalaman kamu di sma (organisasi, keluarga, komunitas, lomba) tentang how much you've learned and developed in terms of skills and personality. Ga perlu sesuatu yang wow atau super, kamu bisa ambil hal kecil tapi berdampak besar di diri kamu. Maybeee dari kegiatan itu kamu jadi better person, understand something better, or overcome your fears/weakness etc. Show them in a unique way through words. Untuk study plan yaa, rencana kamu mau ngapain aja sebelum dan sesudah di Korea. Kamu mau kontribusi apa ke diri kamu, keluarga, komunitas, buat "mereka" dan Indonesia-Korea. Kamu mau gain skills apa, mau belajar apa, mau ngapain. Anything. You know it better yourself. Kamu yang paling tau apa yang kamu pengen. Take some time to reflect on yourself. Ask yourself "is this what I really want to do for the rest of my life?" Yakin siap kuliah di Korea dengan segala konsekuensinya? kalo enggak ya gausah ^^

20. Cara convert GPA gimanaaa??
Di guidelines ada chartnya :(

21. Aku masih mau nanya-nanya lagi, boleh minta kontaknya gak?
Pertanyaan yang masuk lewat email biasanya dijawab dengan lebih niat wkwk. Email: febiola.aurora(at)

Semua pertanyaan di atas adalah pertanyaan yang sekiranya enggak ada di guidelines. Jadiii sebisa mungkin sebelum bertanya baca guidelinesnya dulu ya. Coba cari aja di atau di Kedubes Korea 

Oh iya. Sebenernya KGSP grantees sebelumnya udah banyaaak banget kasih informasi tentang  pertanyaan-pertanyaan seputar KGSP mulai dari blog,, sampe youtube. Beberapa link blognya udah aku kasih di sidebar. Coba kepoin sendiri ya hahaha. InshaAllah udah mencakup semuanya dan lebih lengkap. Semoga membantu.

Good luck!! May the odds be ever in your favour!

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

My First Ramadhan in Korea - First Two Weeks

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Busan Al Fatah Masjid
Assalamu'alaikum! Peace be upon you. 

Masha Allah Masha Allah.
I am so excited to write about this. It may be the first Ramadan abroad yet it feels like the best Ramadhan I've ever had so far. I have been waiting for Ramadan since a long time ago. I couldn't stop thinking how will I pass my first Ramadan abroad, far from parents, and as a minority. But ahamdulillah, Allah made it easier for me and insha'Allah always for the remaining years I'll be in Korea.

Before Ramadhan came, I made plans and monthly tracker of deeds and activities that I'll do for this month so that I can keep myself on track and don't lose motivation in halfway. I also went to E-Mart and Asian Mart to buy stocks and foods!! I spent quite a lot of money on foods, as always. Halal foods are rare and more expensive, but Insha'Allah if our intention is to complete the deen and please Allah, He will make it easier for us and give us more blessings! Nothing to regret :) 

Anyway, Ramadhan 2018 in Korea started from 16th of May. I am not fasting alone, there are quite a lot of Muslim friends in KGSP Batch at Silla University, maybe about ten and more. So, yea I am not alone.

First Day of Ramadan - 16th Night, First Taraweeh
The KMF announced the date, Ramadan mubarak! I went to the mosque to pray Taraweeh with 3 Indonesian friends, it takes about 1 hour to go to Busan Al-Fatah Masjid, Busan. As soon as we reached there, I saw a lot of people from all over the worlds: different race, different skin colors, different languages but one ummah, praying in the same way, the same direction, same prophet, and worshipping the same God. It felt amazing. Well, I went to the mosque quite a lot before Ramadan and meet foreigners too, but because it's feels more and more more more amazing. There were sooo many people like...hundreds? MashaAllah. The 'Isha prayer starts from around 9 p.m and continued with Taraweeh prayer. We finished around 10 p.m and come back to our dorm.

Second Day - 17th, First day of fasting
The first day of fasting! There were like 6 people in my class who were also fasting. I broke my fast with my friends in one of the restaurants in our dorm. We also ate kurmas (dates fruit) that I bought at Asian Mart. Actually, I was planning to save the kurma for a few days, but the guys like it so much they ate it more than I did! lol. but that's okay xD. I didn't go to the mosque today, we just prayed in the Musholla in our building.

Third Day - 18th, Went to the Mosque
I went alone to the Mosque on Friday evening because the class ended earlier today! Thank God it's Friday!!! I was staying in the mosque for three days from Friday until Sunday because I want to feel the Ramadhan vibes hihiii. I was falling asleep so I went late, I had to break my fast in the subway (train), such experience. lol. As soon as I arrived in the mosque, I got to eat Indonesian foods T__T opor ayam !! Ahahaha bahagia.  

Fourth Day - 19th, One Ummah
MashaAllah, after Witr prayer the Moroccan woman beside me was crying so hard. We hugged her while talking with other sisters too. She explained why she was crying, she was really sad and heartbroken of the condition in our ummah today. At first, I didn't cry during Witr because I don't understand what it means -,- (huhu I wish I knew Arabic!) but as soon as I know... since the other girl from Egypt translate it into English (so we basically talk in English, Korean, and Arabic altogether) I started crying too :'( I just knew how it feels like to be in one ummah. It's so beautiful and ironic at the same time. We were saddened by the truth that we can pray, fast, and worship well, eat sehri and iftaar in peace, meanwhile, our brother and sisters in countries like Syria, Palestine, Bangladesh, Afghanistan, etc are suffering and barely eat enough for fasting. It hurts. It should have been hurt. 
An-Nu’man ibn Basheer reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “The parable of the believers in their affection, mercy, and compassion for each other is that of a body. When any limb aches, the whole body reacts with sleeplessness and fever.”
Source: Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī 5665, Ṣaḥīḥ Muslim 2586

Fifth Day - 20th, Cultural Events and First Salary!
Yesterday, after helping a little, very little in cooking and preparing for foods (I still can't cook well I need to learn T_T), one of the Indonesian lady asked me and my friend to join a cultural event near Haeundae beach. There will be like 44 countries participating in this event, so I thought why not? We prepared free foods up until 2 a.m, ate Sehri, and pray Fajr together. We took a rest for a few hours because we barely sleep at all and we had to go at 8 a.m, it took around 1 hour to Haeundae from our place.

So we prepared a lot of Indonesian foods to share for free: martabak, klepon, sagu mutiara, pempek, and even rendang ayam!! Masha'Allah. The temptation tho, we were fasting but we cooked and served Indonesian foods xD. We went at 8 a.m , arrived at 9 a.m, and finished by 3 p.m ! By the end of the event, without knowing, I was asked to sign on a paper...and I got my first salary! Really, Ramadan barakah. I didn't even know that we'll get paid for this my intention was only helping and participating in the event, and mashaAllah the amount of money given was quite a lot  for working less than 9 hours :))))

Sixth Day - 21th, Resting Day
I didn't go anywhere today, I was sooo tired because I lack sleep in the previous days (although it was worth it!). I had a really nice sleep at night and slept again as soon as the class finished. Ate the rendang daging that they gave me for iftaar.

Seventh Day - 22th, Moroccan and new foreign friends
Went to the masjid with Amira, helped with the cooking (just a little!). Ate chicken curry and Indonesian bakwan! HAahaha. After Taraweeh prayer, we got invited by the lady from the Moroccan restaurant to have some tea, chocolates, and cookies. Met Sumayya from Italy who shared her life as a traveller and her journey in learning languages. She said her goal is to speak 25 languages! We also met Rachel/Nisrin who is an American married to a Moroccan. Her journey towards Islam moved our hearts, it made us realized that Allah gives guidance to whoever He wants to :) We just arrived in the dorm at 12! Hahaha.

Eighth Day - 23th, Another chill day in the dorm
Class ends at 1 a.m and I slept a lot. Resting day.
Had my iftaar in the room with the food I kept because I am too lazy to go out :(

Ninth Day - 24th
I don't know I forgot -_-"a but alhamdulillah.

Tenth Day - 25th 
Had my iftar in the dorm again, Jum'ah mubarak!

Eleventh Day - 26th, Bangladesh
Went to the mosque. Ate Bangladesh foods (biryani rice, chickens, and idk?) with hundreds of Muslims. Made new friends! Staying overnight. Always love the feeling and atmosphere. I received an Eid gift (already?) from Mbak Nila, Iram's mom (Korean-Indonesian kid) alhamdulillahhhh.

Twelfth Day - 27th, Pakistani & Cukkumi
Tried pakoras? and other Pakistani foods. The mosque is always full every weekend, feels like a whole new family! I went out to eat cukkumi with Indonesians, it's a stir-fried octopus with satay-sate-like sauce and cheese-almond-pizza. Amazing.

Thirteenth Day - 28th, Imam Al Bukhari
Came back to my daily life routines and reality. Had my iftar with Amira, eat our favourite kyeran bab with cheese, milk, tuna, and kurmas. Alhamdulillah. I also learned about Imam Al-Bukhari and started to read "Summarized Shahih Al-Bukhari in Arabic-English" that I borrowed some time ago. Mesmerized!! MashaAllah may Allah always bless him. You can read his collection of authentic hadith too here
Narrated 'Umar bin Al-Khattab:I heard Allah's Messenger (๏ทบ) saying, "The reward of deeds depends upon the intentions and every person will get the reward according to what he has intended. So whoever emigrated for worldly benefits or for a woman to marry, his emigration was for what he emigrated for."

Fourteenth Day - 29th, omg two weeks already????
OMG???? ALREADY??? WHY. SAD. :((((((((((( Nothing significant today, just another day to learn Korean up until 4 p.m. BUT. STILL. WHY. I don't want Ramadhan to end very soonnnnn :((((

Quick update: it was an amazing day MashAllah. After class, I went to climb the mountain behind our dorm with my Egyptian friend, Amira. We bought foods before and planning to just reflect and refresh our soul. We were talking about everything and listening to the Qur'an that I put in a high volume (since there's no people). We reflected a lot about how lucky we are and that Allah is so merciful. We listened to Al Mulk, Ar Rahman, and Ad Dhuha by Mouadh Ayachi and Muhammad Thaha. We realized how Allah has bestowed us with soooo many blessings... Mashaallah. Mashaallah. Now we see the sky in the different way, the universe as one creation of Allah, and how He is always taking care of us because He knows the best for us. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

Tuesday, May 01, 2018

Don't Be Like Most People

We all know that everything that we do, our prayer, salah, staying away from alcohol, pork, and adultery aren't doing anything for Allah, that is for ourselves, it saves us from making a fool of ourselves. Nothing we do benefit Allah, he is Qiyamuhu Binafsihi, he is the Most-Great. Every single thing that He prohibits from us is for our own sake. It is out of Allah's love for us that He made it so that when you love Him and do something for Him you're in essence of loving yourself and benefitting from Him.

If you look for the words "most people" in the Qur'an, you will find that most people 
"do not know", 7:189,  "do not give thanks", 2:243, 
and "do not believe" 11:17. 

And if you look for "most of them", 
you will find that most of them are "defiantly disobedient", 5:59, 
"ignorant" 6:111,  "turning away" 21:24, "do not reason" 29:23, 
and "do not listen, 8:21.

Don't you want to be among the number of a few people? Dear brothers and sisters?:')
Narrated Anas:
The Prophet said:
“My Lord says, ‘If My slave comes nearer to me for a span, I go nearer to him for a cubit; and if he comes nearer to Me for a cubit, I go nearer to him for the span of outstretched arms; and if he comes to Me walking, I go to him running."
On the authority of Abu Harayrah (may Allah be pleased with him), who said that the Prophet (Allah bless him and give him peace) said: Allah the Almighty said:
"I am as My servant thinks I am. I am with him when he makes mention of Me.
If he makes mention of Me to himself, I make mention of him to Myself; and
if he makes mention of Me in an assembly, I make mention of him in an
assembly better than it. And if he draws near to Me an arm’s length, I draw
near to him a fathom’s length. And if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at

It was related by al-Buhkari (also by Muslim, at-Tirmidhi and Ibn-Majah).
Imam Nawawi’s 40 Hadith Qudsi
He loves us so much, don't you realize that?
May all of us are blessed in the upcoming Ramadhan. :)

p.s - few sources -

Saturday, March 31, 2018

My First Month in Korea as a Muslim

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"Think about your life and daily routines. 
What is the reason of your existence?

Are you meant to study half your life just to work the other half?
Be attached to people just to get your heart broken?
Get buried in the ground after all your worldly achievements,
like nothing ever happened?

Don't you think there's a purpose of your stay on earth?
Something that will result in what happens after your death?
Just stop for a while and think about it.

Perhaps you will realise life is nothing but a temporary illusion 
that fooled people into believing in the creation instead of the Creator.

There is more to your life. You have a much greater purpose.
Don't lose yourself by falling into delusions of this world.
Re-awaken your soul to its purpose. " 

February 19th, 2018, was the day when I arrived in Korea for the second time. If you're one of my readers, you know that I've visited Korea last year during vacation. But this time is different, now I am living in Korea as a KGSP student, university-student-to-be, a Muslimah in a strange country. I am currently studying the Korean language in Silla University before going to Korea University in Seoul, my dream university (for undergraduate, after Oxford University :p). It has been more than a month yet it still feels like a dream to me. I remember the days when I was in grade 12, I was holding my dreams so high every single day that I sometimes thought that I will never reach it. But Allah gave me so much more than I have ever wished for. 

"Be the kind of person who helps others
find the important things they've lost in life- their Deen, 
their smile, their hope, and their courage." 

My flight scheduled at 3 pm on Sunday, I needed to take three planes and two transfers: Jakarta-Singapore-Seoul-Busan. The NIIED (KGSP) bought the ticket for me so I couldn't change the schedule. I remembered, the day before my departure, I was having a fever and flu all of sudden. I was in a very good condition before. I went to the hospital with my parents just because of the severe temperature in my body. We got the medicines, antibiotics, and etc just 4 hours before departure. I don't know if it's some kind of pre-home-sickness, nervousness or something but as soon as I arrived in Singapore, the fever is gone HAHAHAHA. Maybe the thought of leaving home was so overwhelming that I am feeling the pressure inside. I was worried whether I'll manage to survive in a harsh world of Korea and the bunch of obstacles that I will face academically, spiritually, physically, or socially, especially as a Muslimah, as a hijabi.

Did I feel any home-sickness, cultural shock, or anything? Surprisingly, no. It's more than a month already and I didn't cry even once. Yet? Idk. Yes, I did cry before leaving Indonesia, it's not because I am regretting my choice but as I said, the thought of living alone in an unknown world as a stranger is quite suffocating. But here I am, alhamdulillah. I do miss Indonesia, I miss my family, friends in deeds and deen!!! and ofc the foods (FOR THE SAKE OF SAMBAL BAWANG, AYAM PENYET, AYAM GEPREK AND NASI PADANG). Wkwkwk. The halal foods masha'Allah. I rarely eat chickens and beef here because not everything is halal. But good for me, I eat more vegetables and seafood here, I am (trying to) live a healthy life and walk around more. I was so lazy when I live in Indonesia because everything is sooooo easy and comfortable there. Halal foods everywhere, cheap transportations (a.k.a Gojek) who are willing to transport you from one place to another place, or my favourite... delivering our favourite foods at a VERY reasonable price. Oh, how I love Indonesia. I never left my comfort zone my whole life before.

Living abroad as a student before I even reach 20 is a dream come true. Living in a society where the majority is non-muslims (even atheists, to be precise) surely is a different challenge. Korea is a country where the majority of people are eating pork like I eat chickens in daily life and drink soju like I drink water on daily basis. That's why I always said that studying abroad in Korea is both a trial and blessing for me. I am proud of my religion. I am very proud of Islam and being a Muslim. Billions of people in the darkness and Allah chose you to be guided by His mercy. How can you not fall in love with His mercy? The love and pride that I have in my faith grow bigger and bigger it came to the point where I reflected on a lot of things, blessings and privileges that I have in Indonesia. I can find halal foods almost everywhere, literally everywhere. I can pray wherever I like: we have a lot of mosques and mushalla. I can hear adzan 5 times a day which soothes our soul. I didn't experience any weird look or discrimination because the whole majority are doing the same thing as I am, wearing the same clothing as I am, practising the same deen as I am.

"Being sinful is not something to be proud about,
and being righteous is nothing to be arrogant about."

I learned (and still) learned how to represent our deen the way it should be presented every single day. Although I am not perfect; my clothing is still not the way it is should be, my act and behaviour haven't yet portrayed what Prophet Muhammad SAW taught us to do, my speech hasn't benefited any of them, but at least I am trying to learn about myself and my religion more than I have ever done when I still have all those privileges. I seek refuge from Allah from any of my mistakes and wrongdoings. When I first came here on vacation, I never had this kind of thoughts. Well yes, I do have, but not this deep. Some of my friends never heard nor have a Muslim friend before, they told me they are actually afraid of Islam/Muslim because of what the media portrayed. All they have is bad thoughts and impressions. Well no wonder, I am not surprised at all. Even if I can't do a big thing in the future, at least I hope, my existence in Korea could help people understand more about the true Islam: it's not a religion of oppression, terrorism, or whatever you call it.

I got a lot of questions about Islam and hijab. The most common questions that I got so far are: "What?! You pray five times a day??? Wow you're so religious." I am not! Sometimes I wonder how performing five daily prayers can make you religious. It's obligatory. I am far from pious. I am just doing the basic thing that we should be doing as a Muslim. Or, "Do you have to wear that thing (hijab) every day? Can you take it off?" Yes??? and... No??? Wearing a hijab is my own choice and none of us is oppressed. We love hijaaab. Sometimes I laughed at how stupid the news that media makes about us. The news about us is so stupid that sometimes I and my hijabi friends (KGSP in Silla) make jokes about it. Rather than being offended, we laughed a lot to see all those stupid conspiracies. Well sorry to say, just my thoughts. "You can't eat pork?" or "Why can you eat chicken and beef but not *that* chicken and beef?" Yaaa because...why ya??? =)) Hahahaha.

"For you, I pray may your heart always 
be connected to the one who made it."

It's not easy to live in Korea as a Muslim. You will have a fewer option of foods and sometimes people will think you're strange; the way you dress, the way you eat, the way you do anything. But it's nothing about being strange, it's just that they're not getting used to it. And it's okay, we can't please everyone either. You could have the best intentions, and there would still be some, who will think the worst of you. Nevertheless, living in a non-religious country as a Muslim shouldn't discourage you from practising Islam. It shouldn't be an excuse for us to leave the teaching of Islam, our way of life. Instead, we should be proud of our deen. For insha'Allah, insha'Allah I promise, it will worth it in the end. Insha'Allah. May Allah forgive our mistakes and make us among the people that He loves. I am nothing but a sinner, if Allah had no mercy on me I would have been doomed a long time ago. Astaghfirullah.

"And I did not create the Jinn and Mankind

except to worship me. [Qur'an 51-56]"