Wednesday, April 01, 2015

Quran 17:37

Bismillahirrahmaniirahim... Salaam!

It has been a while. No...not a while. It has been a long time. I know it is useless to write here because people seem to leaving blog thingy and concern on another thing like instagram because it is way simpler, so no one would read. But you, the one who read this, I have never write important things so you can skip anyway. But if you would, I appreciate! I even wondering why some people would read my kind-of-useless-articles. It doesn't worth your time though. I am missing the old days where I used to spent my whole day in front of the laptop for blogwalkings, yahoo! messaging (because that's the only thing exist that day!), and sitting all the way like a swaggy piece of shez. And now I am 16 and wondering what was I thinking the whole years ago. Shameful. Found out a lot of shame. That I even sacrificing my dignity.

But rather than that, I shouldn't be regretful because if I don't have those kind of past I wouldn't be like I am today. That sometimes I realized that my writing style has been developing...from the uh-so-annoying to well-at-least-i-am-trying-to-be-better. It is funny to think how I have always thinking inside the box those days. Even though I still am. I still am the old Febby but much more realizing-that-i-finally-grew-up-and-have-to-let-go-shameful-things like that. I still am laugh a lot with no reason. I still am the old Febby who eats-a-lot-but-never-get-fat and sleepy-headed almost all the time. I still am the old Febby who you may cannot bear my silly and annoying behaviors. That I still talk nonsense things. I still am the old Febby who spent hours on mmorpg and fps games that sometimes people wouldn't believe that I still do. But I still am being grateful that I finally past some phases all mankind shall pass. But that's the role of life, that finally people will look back to their pasts, laugh at strange things we did, but then being grateful that we are what we are today. If you are still reading this thing, I hope you also did think the same thing.

It is beautiful how Allah arranges our life perfectly long before we were born that it has been written in Lauh Mahfuz to determine our life; but still there are Qada' and Qadar. He arranges it perfectly that if we could see the details we wouldn't ask for anything more but letting it flow like a stream of a river. I am not trying to look more Islamic, but really...if some people really seek and learn more about Islam, you'll be in love that you'll cry. If I have a chance to change my past, it would be me practicing Islam in early years and being grateful every seconds. Well that is two chances but...

Still the case that always been a hot topic since centuries, that some people think that Islam is identical with terrorism. I know I only have superficial knowledge about this thing but I couldn't bear the feel that it hurts the bottom of my heart and of course people out there. I know that I have no rights to write such things, that I still am a sinful servant. I am feeling like I am being hypocritical to write this while I haven't do anything for Islam. While people out there never miss their prayers, dhikr, and spreading love in Islam. While I am here still tied up in the life of hedonism. That I should have practice Islam more than I have always did. It is sad to think, because...if only people realize how beautiful Islam is. That Allah has stated in the Qur'an:

"If anyone killed a person not in retaliation of murder, or (and) to spread mischief in the land - it would be as if he killed all humankind, and if anyone saved a life, it would be as if he save the life of all humankind" The Holy Qur'an 5:32.

Again, I write this doesn't mean I have more knowledge. I am just trying to spread what is tangled in my mind these days. I hope you have a really good day and don't take it too seriously! Byeee :D