Tuesday, October 09, 2018

Sail, Shore, and Ocean

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Yeongdo-daegyo, Busan, South Korea
Thursday on the beginning of October was a well-spent night under the columns of light in South Korea. The weather was cold and stinging but Autumn is still yet to come. You told me that the sailing was delayed due to this dangerous weather, I remembered how excited you were about the idea of coming back home for a few days. And that time you asked me one more time if we could meet to spend some time around before typhoon hits Busan, or before your months worth of sailing. 

Winds and waves,
Shore and ocean,
Buildings and bridges,

All that above remind me of how you talked about your agony and hardship that you have been through all these years. About the pain that you bury inside your heart over and over again by trying to let it pass one more time. About your fear of future and your own definition of happiness. Three hours of conversation passed by like a warm breeze in a tranquil restaurant near the city lights. “You know what? There are two reasons that make me happy today, guess!” you exclaimed in, carving a big smile.

“Ummm. I think I know,” I said, “First, because you got day-offs from sailing before you get a further announcement about the typhoon effect. Second... because you can eat raw fish today?” Moving my eyebrows as I pointed out at the plate of salmon and tuna in front of us, grabbed another salmon and dipped in the salted-oil sauce. 

You told me before, it has been a long time since you ate raw fish. But suddenly you laughed hard as if you have been given all the freedom you can have in this world. “The first thing is correct,” you smiled once again, letting out a sigh so freely as if all the burden on your shoulder has been swept away. “The second is because I got to talk with you about everything today. Thank you, I am very happy today.” 

And suddenly my heart is at ease,
at least I know how it felt like,
to be able to bring someone’s smile back,
even just for a while.

Then you took me for a walk to a beautiful scene that I have never seen before, well I might have seen it but not this way. Not on this rainy day. I have never walked to the shore on a rainy day, on typhoon weather. No, not at all, not once in my life.

“I am afraid of the sea; the depth of the ocean. It’s scary.” I said and you laughed.

“There's nothing to be afraid of."

"Well, I can't swim!" you laughed again, now mocking me.

"I can swim." so what? It doesn't help me either way. Sea is scary. No further interruption. "I love the sound of the sea, it’s relaxing. I used to go here to swim when I was a kid," you stopped and pointed afar, "Do you see the green and red lights near the lighthouse?” I nodded, “that’s the navigation for ships. Look at those ships there.” 

You kept on pointing your finger like a 6 year-old-kid to all the objects that you can name one by one across the bridge enthusiastically, explained it passionately as if your life is revolved around them, although it's true. Your life is revolved around them. 

Now I have seen the sea when it’s stormy and wild; or when suddenly it’s quiet and serene. I have listened to the sound of waves crashing the rocks across the lane that we walked in along the shore. I have felt the difference of the vivid lights of skyscrapers and the raging waves that were separated by the bridge. I have noticed how the green and red lights were meant to be something important to the world that you live in. 

But the bottom line is that I can't see the ocean the way it used to be, for I realized that everything has turned into something meaningful and beautiful. At least not in my life, but maybe somebody else's life.

And maybe, too, this world is the only place 
where I get the chance to learn about people from a wider perspective 
and be less judgemental about other people's life.

This is how I usually express my gratitude to my friends, by learning from their life and building new perspectives. :) Thank you for such experience!

Sunday, September 23, 2018

[Comment here!] Blog post request & ideas


Recently, I have been receiving a lot of requests and blog post ideas through Instagram and emails. I already took notes and planned to write as soon as I have time and collect material 📝 InshaAllah soon. Anyway, thank you so so much for your kindest words, loves, and supports you gave. I might not express it pretty well in my replies (due to the amount of happiness I felt in one go!), I was overwhelmed but it DOES touch my heart :') heheee. Send my loves back to y'all!

I was wondering if some of you have any ideas or request as well, please comment down below the things that you most curious about. Anything. And anonymous is allowed. So, feel free to say anything. I will try my best to give you the best information or opinions (if needed). Even if you feel like you already requested via dm or smth, you can comment here again. I am afraid I have forgotten......some. hehe. sorry. 

Febby Aurora xx

Saturday, September 08, 2018


Prophet (pbuh) said: Souls are like crowds which gather together. 
The ones who met before get along well. 
The ones who did not meet before, cannot get along very well and separate.” 
(Bukhari, Anbiya, 2; Muslim, Birr, 159; Abu Dawud, Adab, 19). 

To: the unknown

Your soul color shall be a deep dark blue with a hint of silver. Your true colors are interchangeable, a collection of complexities that I will never fully comprehend.
It will be free and not vulnerable;
the rockets of desire;
sincere but complex. 
It will attract my mind that is only captured by the uncommon and s o l e l y individual. The few ones who are willing to drag their mind out of this world and go beyond the limit. My eyes would have seen a lot of things, from the way your words shall ignite my own to the way you hide away your crown. Your thoughts are deep and I beseech. Through you, I will find pieces of myself that were once tied with yours before we were born in this world. We might not know yet, but the love remains old and e c h o e s in the world before lifetimes. 

But all that matters is that someday I will find out that you have grown more than I ever had since all the years before we meet. And you deserve a whole lot more in the future that has been written only for the soul that remains untouched and truthful. Your soul is beautiful. And you should know that my prayers are for thou, the heart has been longing for.

[04.28 am, dorm room, full of thoughts]

p.s:  idih baper amat abis makan apa w. 
oh iya makan selai kacang. nga nyambung biar hehe maap.
ngatau inspirasi darimana. nulis aja.

Wednesday, September 05, 2018

[Link Download] KGSP-Undergraduate 2019!


Guidelines KGSP 2019 for Undergraduate Studies (via Embassy, University Track, and Associate Degree) has been released.
For guidelines and more information click:



Please read the guidelines and available informations first before asking!
KGSP Grantee’s blogs link are available on the sidebar of this blog as well.
Best of luck!!

Saturday, September 01, 2018

Spend five minutes to watch this video :)

Assalamualaikum peace be upon you,

Hello it’s me. I don’t know who you are, the one who passed by this post,
but I am very sure that Allah wants you to know this message.

I just want you to spend your 5 minutes to watch this video. Just a little time to invest, not that much. Look, ponder, and reflect how this person’s heart is attached to Allah. I hope you can take something to learn from it :)

Have a good day and may Allah bless you🖤

Sunday, August 26, 2018


Sometimes I wonder,
whose prayers has been granted by Allah
to the point that I can achieve what I have achieved right now.

If I were only relying on my own deeds and efforts,
I would never deserve everything
and anything that I have today.

Sometimes I wonder,
if I am deserving
of all the prayers that my mom always recites for me
in secrets at day and night.

Even if I dedicate my whole life
to payback what she always did to me,
I would forever be incapable
of doing the exact same thing.

For the prayers that reached the heavens,
knocked the door of His abundant mercy
For the prayers that we are aware or unaware of,
known or unknown.

For the people whose prayers are sincere,
who constantly prays to our ummah in silence,
know that even if no one acknowledges you
Allah knows, and that should be enough for us.

He has blessed us with so many things
that we didn't even pray for
He has protected us from so many things
we didn't know about.

For the people whose heart is attached to Allah,
for those who are content with our religion
I wish that Allah will bless you with His mercy,
love and guidance,
and anything that you deserve
in this dunya and hereafter.

[August 26th, 2018. 2.16 a.m, Busan Al Fatah Masjid]

Thursday, August 23, 2018

Summer Vacation: Busan and Jeju with my Aunt and Cousin!

By the time we ate it, we just stare at each other in silence.... “omg.” “omg.” “wait. OMG hoW COME THIS IS SO GOOD” “like sushi!!!!” “Omg. What is this taste.” “I don’t know but it’s just amazing" 

My summer vacation started on 20th July 2018, I spent a few days traveling around Busan and hanging out with my friends. On Wednesday, 26th July 2018, my cousin and aunt happened to visit Korea so I picked them up in Busan Station and headed to the hotel near Jagalchi Market around 2 p.m. For your information, it was sooo hot in Korea. Waaaay hotter than in Indonesia I swear!! It’s so humid and the heat-wave is unbelievable, when you’re going outside the room it’s like a blazing fire splashed on your face and you will sweat in no time. I thought Indonesia is hot enough, hotter than any other countries, turns out Korea is way hotter during summer.

Then we were roaming around BIFF Square Nampo-dong in front of Jagalchi Market and I was researching for seafood and halal foods near the place. Just went there once for eating Indonesian bakso a few weeks ago so I didn’t really know the place, but it is quite a famous place. So I found a restaurant with good reviews in Naver, thousands of reviews saying that it’s worth to visit the place! The place called Busan Huet Jib 부산횟집, Jagalchi, and they served seafood including octopus, shrimp, seafood stew, and some weird kinds of seafood that I can’t even look at it. Hahahaha.

My cousin was yearning for sannakji 산낙지 , it’s the famous lived octopus dish where you can find the octopus still moving around in the plate. Well, it's dead. Don't worry it’s clean and dead, the head is already removed too, just the legs left, but they have this motion something I don’t know. After a few minutes, they stopped moving. For some people, it might be gross, but it was okay, just like sushi actually. It tastes like... an octopus. They put olive oil and some small cubed veggies to make it.. presentable? However it was quite expensive, it costs around 15.000 won for a small plate (one baby octopus!). We also ordered two cheese fried big shrimp, haha I don’t know the name, but it was deliciouussss. Love it so much! Oh and seafood stew. It was nice as well. After that, we bought Hotteok and eat some street foods near the place. Hotteok 호떡 is a hand-sized Korean pancake filled with cinnamon, brown sugar, honey, and the best part... chopped variety of nuts!!

The next day, we ate lunch in my favorite restaurant near Suan Station to eat Cukkumi 주꾸미. It is a fried octopus with some sauces I don’t know what but it tastes like Satay alias Sate, you name it. It comes with a light cheese pizza where you can dip in the sauce. Tastes amazing!!! They said they liked it so much and by far the best Korean dish that they like.

A few moments later, my cousin asked me “oh they served ganjang gejang 간장게장, have you ever tried it?” “What? What is that?” “It’s a blue crab marinated in soy sauce!!! You didn’t know?” “No, never heard of it.” “Shall we order?? I really want to try it!” “Sure!” , then we ordered one for 12.000 won. It was.. weird. By the time we ate it, we just stare at each other in silence.... “omg.” “omg.” “OMG THIS IS SO GOOD” “like sushi!!!!” “Omg. What is this taste.” “I don’t know but it’s just amazing.”. So our favorite Korean dish now: 1. Ganjang gejang 간장 게장 and 2. Cukkumi 주꾸미.

Tuesday, August 14, 2018


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“The capacity to learn is a gift; The ability to learn is a skill; the willingness to learn is a choice” -Brian Herbert
Now that I see my country in a wider perspective from a far distance. I still could not fully comprehend why people keep on making war between each other, debating certain topics that should not be debated at all. A lot of people talk in a loud voice without knowledge claiming that what they do is to educate people yet it was all nothing but ignorance and an empty glass. They refuse to understand in the very first place.

I do not expect people to agree or believe what I believe, but I do expect people to do their own research. Everyone has a different background, moral, and motives which alter the way one sees something to put the pieces together for themselves. Well, it's not only about having the right answer, for it could be biased, but also asking the right question. 
"There is simple ignorance, not knowing, and willful ignorance that refuses to know, that covers the light of knowledge with the dark blanket of bias." -Elizabeth Moon
Thinking about it again, it is true that: sometimes, you just have to play the role of a fool to fool the fool who thinks they are fooling you. Let's just play it cool. As Mark Twain said, it is better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool than to open it and remove all doubt.

I don't know if it's intelligence, 
or arrogance.

Well, I don't know, maybe I am a fool.

Sunday, August 05, 2018

My Favorite Youtube Channel (Islamic)

Halo :-) Peace be upon you.
Kali ini aku mau share channel youtube favoritku sejak dahulu kala dan alhamdulillah sampai sekarang. Semoga bermanfaat dan bisa menambah ilmu! Sebenernya pengen banget share banyak banget cuma banyak banget jadi bingung (?) hahaha lol.
"The seeking of knowledge is obligatory for every Muslim." -Hadith At Tirmidhi  
"It is not the knowledge who should come to you, it is you who should come to the knowledge."-Imam Malik  
"Islam is knowledge based. The more you know it, you'll love it. The less you know about it, the more you will dwindle." -Mufti Ismail Menk  
"The more knowledge (of deen) you have the more humble you should be. Instead, you are becoming judgemental." -Nouman Ali Khan

Btw try to watch at least one video, just one video, langsung klik tulisannya aja yaa terus silahkan explore sendiri. Kebetulan emang itu channelnya bahasa Inggris semua, gatau kenapa sih soalnya saya lebih prefer style da'wah dan selingan jokesnya beliau-beliau.  Favorit saya selama ini sih Ust. Nouman Ali Khan, Mufti Ismail Menk, Tim Humble, Yasir Qadhi, dsb. Tapi bukan berarti yang dr Indonesia buruk ya, saya juga kadang dengerin Ust. Khalid Basalamah atau Ust. Adi Hidayat kok. 

Oh iya mau share aja, sebisa mungkin habis dapat ilmu itu ditulis atau bikin rangkumannya karena dengan begitu inshaAllah ilmu yang didapat jadi lebih nempel. Kalaupun lupa, sewaktu-waktu bisa dibuka dan pelajari lagi, apalagi kita sebagai manusia iman sering naik turun jadi tetep harus di refresh ulang biar ilmunya gak ilang. :( Aku sendiri nyiapin satu buku khusus untuk ilmu-ilmu yang berkaitan dengan Islam, entah yang didapat dari kajian langsung, liqo, atau video-video kajian. 

Kebetulan kali ini lagi pake buku hadiah dari salah satu sahabat aku, Ninis, sebelum berangkat ke Korea. Barakallah fiik ya nis, semoga yang aku tulis di buku ini bisa jadi amal ke kamu juga :-)

nyolong dari ignya ninis.
maap yak males ngedit hahahah

Kalau bingung mulai dari mana, start from the topic that interest you the most or you're curious about. Kalau dulu sih karena aku ngerasanya sudah Islam, tapi nggak mengenal Allah dan Rasulnya. Ternyata setelah tau, dan sedikit-sedikit mempelajari... mashaAllah. Gak bisa dijelaskan dengan kata-kata #ea. Salah satu cerita yang selalu sukses bikin nangis sesenggukan itu kalau udah denger hadits dan cerita waktu Rasulullah saw meninggal dunia, yang dipikirin cuma umatnya, sedangkan kita? :'(

Anas ibn Malik reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, "I wish I could meet my brothers." The Prophet's companions said, "Are we not your brothers?" The Prophet said, "You are my companions, but my brothers are those who have faith in me although they never saw me." Source: Musnad Ahmad 12169

Dan kita emang manusia akhir zaman, gak heran sekarang banyak banget yang udah meninggalkan agama bahkan tidak percaya Tuhan, gak papa sih itu hak masing-masing toh gak bisa maksa juga. Tapi yang perlu diingat, you're responsible for yourself. So, whatever you do, remember that you're the only one who can help yourself.

btw mau nanya nih, lebih prefer aku nulis pake bahasa Indonesia apa Inggris yak? Komen ya hahaha silent reader juga gapapa sih :( wkwk.

Thursday, August 02, 2018

Korean Language Program: First Semester Finished!

It's August already!!!!!! 
wHOA, I remember I arrived in Korea on 19th February, it means I have been here for almost 6 months! It's my first time of being away from home in such a long time. I did finish my first semester of Korean Language Program at Silla University and currently on my vacation until September.

Does that mean you're going to College soon??
nO. Well, I don't know but I am a bit pessimistic because I didn't do well on TOPIK 56th. I don't think I can get level 5/6 soon hahahaa it's so hard. I don't know, I am still waiting for the results.

If you're a KGSP Scholar, this 1 year Korean Language Training is obligatory before going to your real university unless you already have TOPIK level 5 or 6 upon application. The university for Korean language program is randomly picked by NIIED, you can't choose nor it can be changed. We study from Monday to Friday from 9 a.m to 4 p.m (just like school T_T) except on Friday the class finishes at 1 p.m. We will have both regular class and TOPIK class, in Silla University we use Korean books from Yonsei University. Meanwhile, for the TOPIK class, we will solve previous TOPIK questions which the teachers already compiled into one book. We have exams and homework as well. 

During the Korean Language Program the schools will also provide us with cultural activity outside class so that we can experience Korean culture by ourselves, and of course, to cure the boredom of learning Korean 24/7!!! Just kidding, I didn't study that much :( Well, the results speak because my exam result wasn't really good compared to my friends who studied a lot. hehe. I should study harder next time. hehe.

When you first arrived, they will conduct an exam to know your Korean language skills, like a mock exam? So they can classify you into certain classes. In my year, there were 3 classes, from A to C. The two classes were for the beginners, started from the very beginning: hangeul. And my class is for the intermediate. My class has 12 GKS students from very diverse countries: Indonesia, Singapore, Turkey, Kazakhstan, Kyrzygstan, Turkmenistan, Egypt, Tajikistan, Mongolia, Iran, and Chile. They're all already sooo good in Korean, except me, my speaking, writing, and reading are sucks trust me I am the worst at class. 

The class will be conducted in Korean, 99,95% in Korean because most of the teachers can't speak English but some of them know a little. I was soooo confused at first because my speaking and listening skill are so bad. But alhamdulillah I think I am getting used to it. The beginner classes are also taught in Korean, sometimes English. Don't worry!! The teachers often used motions when explaining things.

My friends helped me so much by talking to me in Korean and sometimes gave me a piece of advice to not to be afraid of speaking and sharing my thoughts. I am shy, ehehehe. And usually, I don't talk that much either so it's the hardezzzzt. But whatever. Right now I am in a state where my Indonesian is so weird, my English is so degrading (I speak weirdly now.), and my Korean is getting nowhere huhuuhuhuuuu.

For those who are asking, will my courses in University be in the Korean language? 
nOOO. Hahahaha. I don't want to :-) 
I love English. My courses will be in English and yes I still need to attend Korean Language Program because it will come in handy for daily life and of course meeting and talking with Koreans. At least, if you speak a good Korean, they wouldn't underestimate you that much. ahahahaa.

Sunday, July 29, 2018


when you get to know me,
you will enter a galaxy
with worlds of endless

passion & affection

hopes & dreams
burning desires

also sometimes 
you will stare into a black hole,
but don't be scared by my demons
when they welcome you with

paradox & uncertainty 

coldness & confusion
long-lost mind.

Monday, July 16, 2018

Guidelines KGSP 2018 via Embassy

“Kak guidelines KGSP download di mana ya?”

Karena masih banyak banget yang nanya tentang download guidelines kgsp, nih aku kasih linknya aja deh di sini ya. Ini guidelines KGSP 2018 via Embassy (th 2017)  BUAT YANG BUTUH REFERENSI. KGSP 2019 buka bulan September (S1 Undergraduate). Bisa baca lagi artikel tentang KGSP yang lain atau cek langsung di web kedubes Korea untuk Indonesia dan studyinkorea.go.kr
Ok ok?:3

LINK GUIDELINES KGSP 2018 Embassy (Tahun angkatanku)

Selamat membaca.
Baca dulu ya, sayang.
Love you.

Jangan lupa dibaca dulu:3


Saturday, June 16, 2018

Ramadan in Korea pt.2 : The best gift on the 29th night of Ramadhan

Assalamu'alaikum! Happy Eid Mubarak. 
May Allah always bless you throughout the year!

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I still can't believe it that Ramadhan has left us :'( 라마단 아주 그리워... But alhamdulillah, as always, Allah let me taste the beauty of this holy Ramadhan with the beautiful soul, people, and atmosphere although I live miles away from home. My first Ramadhan far from family. Memorable yet I still miss my family and friends. The foods are no different, but the people... no one can replace our family, right?

Anyways, if you haven't read my first post about Ramadhan in Korea please click this link! In the last two weeks of Ramadhan, Allah opened my eyes to learn and discover about other Surah in the Qur'an. Ramadan is the perfect month if you want to get closer to Allah and the Qur'an because this is the month of revelation and He rewards us with soooo many glad tidings and rewards. Masha'Allah. My favourite Surah always revolves around Ar Rahman, Al Kahfi, An Naba, and Al Mulk, but ever since I listened and learned more about Al Qalam and Az Zumar... my heart just dropped. Even Surah Al Fatihah... the mother of Surah, the first Surah that we memorized when we were 6 years old now feels different. Every time I read another Surah, jumped to the next verse, pondering about what Allah is trying to tell me makes me fall in love deeper and deeper. How can you not love the Qur'an when it is the only book where the Writer is fall in love with the reader?

“Islam began as something strange, and it shall return to being something strange

as it began, so give glad tidings to the strangers.” (Sahih Muslim)

This Ramadhan motivates me so much to learn the Arabic language, for Allah's sake Wallahi I am so jealous of the people who can speak and understand Arabic since they were born because in that way they would understand what the imam is reciting during Fardh prayer, Taraweeh prayer, and most important... the Witr du'a (prayer)! The Witr du'a mashaAllah dear brother and sister, people cried... people will cry rivers if only they knew the meaning. The Witr du'a should feel like...the detox of our soul? Pretty much. And Alhamdulillah... alhamdulillah for the blessings that Allah gave me, this Ramadhan got me realized that there is still a loooottt of things that I need to learn and discover. Yet...what I do is sleep. So many new goals and objective to achieve, I am so excited!!! Please keep me in your du'a xD heheheeeee

I am so jealous of the people beside me because they can cry during prayer, especially witr, to the point that I am so dedicated to look for Witr du'a with English translations on Youtube. And Wallahi mashaAllah I cried. Just wonder how would I feel if I can understand Arabic. MashaAllah what a beautiful du'a what a beautiful feelings :')))) Well this is just an example of witr dua, but wallahi wallahi so beautiful..........

Oh! I want to tell you one of the memorable days during this Ramadhan. So, on the 18th day of Ramadhan - 2nd of June, I went to Gimhae with GKS Muslim friends in Silla University: Amira, Ghazal, Rano, Fahd, Pranata, Normatjon, and Daler. We were planning to break our fast together alias buka bersama, this is our first time to break our fast together because we always did it separately or...I'll be in the masjid! We went by bus number 62 and took the train to Gimhae for 1 hour and half since 6.30 before arrived in Uzbek-Russian Restaurant. Oh anyway, it's in a different province but near Busan.

I was sitting beside Fahd in the train and talking about how much we love this deen and how grateful we are to be blessed with Islam. It is so beautiful. And we were talking about prophet Muhammad, especially the moment when Prophet Muhammad passed away yet he always thinks about his ummah. "Yaa Ummati...ya ummati...ya ummati....". And see ourselves? How many times in a day that we think about Prophet Muhammad. We talked about how we cried the first time we watched it, and whenever we watched it again and again, it always brings us to tears. Ya Allah... how I miss Rasulullah SAW... Allahumma Shalli Alaa Muhammad.

And you know, there is this famous hadith that we really love, and it should be enough for you to realize how much Prophet Muhammad cares, misses, and loves us. May Allah made us among the ummah of the Prophet Muhammad in the hereafter, aamiin.

Anas ibn Malik reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “I wish I could meet my brothers.” The Prophet’s companions said, “Are we not your brothers?” The Prophet said, “You are my companions, but my brothers are those who have faith in me although they never saw me.” Source: Musnad Aḥmad 12169. Grade: Hasan (fair) according to Al-Albani

Finally, we arrived in Gimhae just a couple of minutes after iftaar (sunset, maghrib. the time when Muslim breaks their fast). Me and Amira brought our dates and shared it with our starving friends. Hahahaha they ate it all! Then, after ordering some foods some of us prayed Maghrib prayer in congregation at a small Musholla (prayer room, smaller than mosque) near the restaurant. We got to eat Kebab, Samosa, and a lot of meat and lamb that I don't know the name of but the most important thing is it's halal and delicious!! We spent almost 100,000 won for one dinner, astaghfirullah but we have no choice because halal food is always expensive but whatever at least our heart is at ease and we don't do it everyday xD. After that, we took a walk at night and ate vanilla ice cream from Lotteria that only costs 500 won hahahaha #brokelife

We joookeeddd so much along the way, I am feeling like I have a family. Well, we often hang out with other friends too, but, maybe just maybe because we feel like we have this connection as one-ummah, as a Muslim, this feels....different. I don't know but I hope we can meet again together in Jannah and I prayed that Allah will guide them and makes it easier for them to practice and be proud of our religion. Insha'Allah.

"A Gift From Allah"
Allah answered my prayer on the 29th night of Ramadhan at 2 a.m during Qiyamul Lail. Alhamdulillah. I'd rather not tell you what it was, but this was the best gift that a humble slave could ever get from his Lord, his Master. I am writing this to keep myself reminded if someday I've forgotten about this :')

This Ramadhan was not perfect, but it left me a lot of lessons and make me realized upon every single blessing that Allah gave me. The atmosphere was amazing, even though I am miles away from being apart from my family and lovely friends. 2 hours journey back and forth from my dorm to the mosque that I've always trying to do whenever I have time. It feels miserable to remember that I only have to take 5 minutes walk to go to the mosque in Indonesia, few minutes walk to halal foods, those are one of the blessings that we tend to forget. This Ramadhan was not the best, but I have done my best. May He always bless us and give another chance to meet this beautiful month until next year.

Ramadan has left us, 
but don't let the lessons and positive changes it brought us leave from within us. 
This is not the end! You never know what little prayer/du'a can save you from the fire and admit you into jannah 🌺

Monday, June 11, 2018

KGSP - FAQ (Frequently Asked Questions)

Berhubung masih banyak banget pertanyaan-pertanyaan berulang yang masuk di instagram, whatsapp, line tentang beasiswa KGSP aku jawab lewat blog aja ya. Jadi, KGSP adalah beasiswa yang diberikan oleh pemerintah Korea Selatan untuk pelajar dari seluruh dunia yang tertarik untuk melanjutkan studinya di Korsel. Beasiswa ini dibuka tiap tahun, bulan Februari untuk KGSP-Graduate dan bulan September untuk KGSP-Undergraduate.

Beasiswa ini full dari tuition/biaya kuliah, biaya hidup per bulan biaya rumah sakit per bulan, dsb. Untuk liat keterangan lengkapnya coba download guidelines di web kedubes Korea atau studyinkorea.go.kr


1. Dari NIIED kan disuruh 3 photocopies sedangkan kedubes minta 1 original file, jadi kita kirimnya ikut yang mana? 
Ikut sesuai peraturan kedubes, kirim 1 original file selama peraturan belum berubah.

2. Kk kmrn daftar univ dan jurusan apa aja? 
Jurusan International Studies di Korea University, Hankuk University of Foreign Studies (HUFS) dan Chung-Ang University. Alhamdulillah keterima di semua universitas dan aku pilih Korea University.

3. Grantees KGSP-U 2018 yang lain pilih jurusan apa?
Dua-duanya cowok pilih Materials Engineering.

4. Apply pake language proficiency apa aja? Kalau boleh tau nilainya berapa? 
Pakai both IELTS Academic dan TOPIK. TOPIK baru level 2, IELTSnya standar wkwk.

5. Kalo aku baru lulus taun 2018, bisa ikut KGSP-U 2019 gak? 
Enggak kalau lulus th 2018, harus  ikut tahun depan, 2019 di KGSP-U 2020. Syarat ikut KGSP harus lulus dari SMA dulu ya dan punya ijazah.

6. Aku mau ikut KGSP tapi aku udah kuliah di Indonesia, boleh nggak? 
Boleh, asal kamu belum lulus S1/punya gelar sarjana. Kemarin kebetulan aku juga udah kuliah selama beberapa bulan di salah satu PTN di Yogyakarta.

7. Proof of Citizenship yang di translate ke English apa aja ya? 
KK, KTP kamu+ortu, dan akte kelahiran.

8. Cari sworn translator dimana ya? Biayanya berapa? 
Bisa cari di web ini. Banyak banget macem-macem. Dari 45ribu-150ribu per lembar. 

9. Aku lihat KGSP grantee lain ada yang translate sendiri, itu boleh? 
Aku kurang tau, tapi kalau KGSP grantee lain ada yang bisa gitu, ya boleh aja.

10. Application formnya diketik atau tulis tangan? 
Semuanya diketik yaaa biar rapi.

11. Kak biasanya yg daftar berapa orang? Interview dihubungin berapa orang dari embassynya? Yang lolos berapa? 
Tahun 2017 ini katanya klo ga salah sekitar 489 pendaftar? Gatau juga, soalnya ga dikabarin. Interview kemarin ada 9 orang (3x kuota) sedangkan yang lolos 2nd round ada 3 orang (dan 1 waiting list)

12. Aku pengen daftar beasiswa KGSP tapi aku gabisa bahasa Inggris:( 
Bahasa Inggris itu penting banget karena dari apply, bikin essay, ngisi form, belajar bahasa Korea di Language Training Program, sampe kuliahnya kan pake bahasa Inggris. Jadi kalo gabisa bahasa Inggris gimana dong:(

13. Kak aku mau jurusan ini.... kira-kira yang bagus dimana ya? Kak Univ ini bagus gak ya?
Ya aku juga gatau:(( aku cuma tau tentang jurusanku aja. Jadiiii sebisa mungkin do your own research ya! Kepoin websitenya satu-satu hehe. 

14. Aku gapunya sertifikat bahasa apa-apa, kira-kira masih bisa lolos nggak ya?
Bisa aja.. KGSP 2017 dan salah satu grantee KGSP 2018 juga gada sertifikat bahasa. Mungkin ada hal yang menjual dan membuat pihak beasiswa tertarik sama kamu entah dari sertifikat lomba, pengalaman, essay, atau personality. Tapi kalau ada language proficiency lebih baik ya dan bisa menambah peluang kamu, karena waktu interview kemarin aja yang punya TOPIK ada 5 orang dan yang punya IELTS/TOEFL/TOEIC juga ada beberapa. Sebisa mungkin maksimalin di dokumen ya.

15. Menurut kamu apa sih yang bikin kamu terpilih dibanding peserta lain?
Aku sendiri gak nyangka bisa keterima, soalnya waktu interview ternyata pesaingnya keren-keren semua. Yang interview satu ruangan bareng aku kemarin juga bagus-bagus... aku juga gatau apa yang dilihat dari interviewer. Mungkin body language dan personality juga penting (walaupun sebenernya aku juga gatau bagusnya dimana hahaha), didukung sama dokumen, sertifikat, dan essay. Yang tau hanya pihak Kedubes dan NIIED wkwk.

16. Waktu interview kemarin gimana prosedurnya? Pake Bahasa Inggris atau Korea? Ditanyain apa aja?
Tahun kemarin embassy track satu ruangan langsung tiga orang dan dikasih pertanyaan secara bergilir sama tiga orang interviewer (satu orang Indonesia, dua orang Korea). Pake Bahasa Inggris, tapi kalo mau pake Korea juga boleh. Yang pasti pertanyaannya seputar tentang Korea, kenapa kamu pengen kuliah di Korea, motivasimu apa, seputar jurusan yang kamu pilih, dan tentang personality kamu.

17. Penghargaan kakak banyak? Kemarin sertifikat/awardsnya berhubungan sama jurusan nggak?
Lumayan. Enggak juga sih, gak nyambung sebenernya. Awardsku kebanyakan bidang physics engineering padahal apply jurusan sosial. Beberapa ada sih tentang writing competitions dan lomba bahasa tapi enggak banyak

18. Rata-rata rapor kk berapa?
Raporku biasa aja beneran deh. Aku kebanyakan bolos pas sma wkwkw. GPA 3,41/4 atau sekitar 85,25?

19. Gimana sih cara nulis essay? Tips nulis personal statement + study plan dong !
Be honest. Jujur aja. Ga ada acuan bener atau salah dalam menulis essay. Everyone has different path and journeys. As long as you're true to yourself and convince them that you deserve the scholarship, anything will do. Mungkin kamu bisa ceritain tentang pengalaman kamu di sma (organisasi, keluarga, komunitas, lomba) tentang how much you've learned and developed in terms of skills and personality. Ga perlu sesuatu yang wow atau super, kamu bisa ambil hal kecil tapi berdampak besar di diri kamu. Maybeee dari kegiatan itu kamu jadi better person, understand something better, or overcome your fears/weakness etc. Show them in a unique way through words. Untuk study plan yaa, rencana kamu mau ngapain aja sebelum dan sesudah di Korea. Kamu mau kontribusi apa ke diri kamu, keluarga, komunitas, buat "mereka" dan Indonesia-Korea. Kamu mau gain skills apa, mau belajar apa, mau ngapain. Anything. You know it better yourself. Kamu yang paling tau apa yang kamu pengen. Take some time to reflect on yourself. Ask yourself "is this what I really want to do for the rest of my life?" Yakin siap kuliah di Korea dengan segala konsekuensinya? kalo enggak ya gausah ^^

20. Cara convert GPA gimanaaa??
Di guidelines ada chartnya :(

21. Aku masih mau nanya-nanya lagi, boleh minta kontaknya gak?
Pertanyaan yang masuk lewat email biasanya dijawab dengan lebih niat wkwk. Email: febiola.aurora(at)yahoo.co.id

Semua pertanyaan di atas adalah pertanyaan yang sekiranya enggak ada di guidelines. Jadiii sebisa mungkin sebelum bertanya baca guidelinesnya dulu ya. Coba cari aja di studyinkorea.go.kr atau di Kedubes Korea 

Oh iya. Sebenernya KGSP grantees sebelumnya udah banyaaak banget kasih informasi tentang  pertanyaan-pertanyaan seputar KGSP mulai dari blog, ask.fm, sampe youtube. Beberapa link blognya udah aku kasih di sidebar. Coba kepoin sendiri ya hahaha. InshaAllah udah mencakup semuanya dan lebih lengkap. Semoga membantu.

Good luck!! May the odds be ever in your favour!

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

My First Ramadhan in Korea - First Two Weeks

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Busan Al Fatah Masjid
Assalamu'alaikum! Peace be upon you. 

Masha Allah Masha Allah.
I am so excited to write about this. It may be the first Ramadan abroad yet it feels like the best Ramadhan I've ever had so far. I have been waiting for Ramadan since a long time ago. I couldn't stop thinking how will I pass my first Ramadan abroad, far from parents, and as a minority. But ahamdulillah, Allah made it easier for me and insha'Allah always for the remaining years I'll be in Korea.

Before Ramadhan came, I made plans and monthly tracker of deeds and activities that I'll do for this month so that I can keep myself on track and don't lose motivation in halfway. I also went to E-Mart and Asian Mart to buy stocks and foods!! I spent quite a lot of money on foods, as always. Halal foods are rare and more expensive, but Insha'Allah if our intention is to complete the deen and please Allah, He will make it easier for us and give us more blessings! Nothing to regret :) 

Anyway, Ramadhan 2018 in Korea started from 16th of May. I am not fasting alone, there are quite a lot of Muslim friends in KGSP Batch at Silla University, maybe about ten and more. So, yea I am not alone.

First Day of Ramadan - 16th Night, First Taraweeh
The KMF announced the date, Ramadan mubarak! I went to the mosque to pray Taraweeh with 3 Indonesian friends, it takes about 1 hour to go to Busan Al-Fatah Masjid, Busan. As soon as we reached there, I saw a lot of people from all over the worlds: different race, different skin colors, different languages but one ummah, praying in the same way, the same direction, same prophet, and worshipping the same God. It felt amazing. Well, I went to the mosque quite a lot before Ramadan and meet foreigners too, but because it's Ramadan...it feels more and more more more amazing. There were sooo many people like...hundreds? MashaAllah. The 'Isha prayer starts from around 9 p.m and continued with Taraweeh prayer. We finished around 10 p.m and come back to our dorm.

Second Day - 17th, First day of fasting
The first day of fasting! There were like 6 people in my class who were also fasting. I broke my fast with my friends in one of the restaurants in our dorm. We also ate kurmas (dates fruit) that I bought at Asian Mart. Actually, I was planning to save the kurma for a few days, but the guys like it so much they ate it more than I did! lol. but that's okay xD. I didn't go to the mosque today, we just prayed in the Musholla in our building.

Third Day - 18th, Went to the Mosque
I went alone to the Mosque on Friday evening because the class ended earlier today! Thank God it's Friday!!! I was staying in the mosque for three days from Friday until Sunday because I want to feel the Ramadhan vibes hihiii. I was falling asleep so I went late, I had to break my fast in the subway (train), such experience. lol. As soon as I arrived in the mosque, I got to eat Indonesian foods T__T opor ayam !! Ahahaha bahagia.  

Fourth Day - 19th, One Ummah
MashaAllah, after Witr prayer the Moroccan woman beside me was crying so hard. We hugged her while talking with other sisters too. She explained why she was crying, she was really sad and heartbroken of the condition in our ummah today. At first, I didn't cry during Witr because I don't understand what it means -,- (huhu I wish I knew Arabic!) but as soon as I know... since the other girl from Egypt translate it into English (so we basically talk in English, Korean, and Arabic altogether) I started crying too :'( I just knew how it feels like to be in one ummah. It's so beautiful and ironic at the same time. We were saddened by the truth that we can pray, fast, and worship well, eat sehri and iftaar in peace, meanwhile, our brother and sisters in countries like Syria, Palestine, Bangladesh, Afghanistan, etc are suffering and barely eat enough for fasting. It hurts. It should have been hurt. 
An-Nu’man ibn Basheer reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “The parable of the believers in their affection, mercy, and compassion for each other is that of a body. When any limb aches, the whole body reacts with sleeplessness and fever.”
Source: Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī 5665, Ṣaḥīḥ Muslim 2586

Fifth Day - 20th, Cultural Events and First Salary!
Yesterday, after helping a little, very little in cooking and preparing for foods (I still can't cook well I need to learn T_T), one of the Indonesian lady asked me and my friend to join a cultural event near Haeundae beach. There will be like 44 countries participating in this event, so I thought why not? We prepared free foods up until 2 a.m, ate Sehri, and pray Fajr together. We took a rest for a few hours because we barely sleep at all and we had to go at 8 a.m, it took around 1 hour to Haeundae from our place.

So we prepared a lot of Indonesian foods to share for free: martabak, klepon, sagu mutiara, pempek, and even rendang ayam!! Masha'Allah. The temptation tho, we were fasting but we cooked and served Indonesian foods xD. We went at 8 a.m , arrived at 9 a.m, and finished by 3 p.m ! By the end of the event, without knowing, I was asked to sign on a paper...and I got my first salary! Really, Ramadan barakah. I didn't even know that we'll get paid for this my intention was only helping and participating in the event, and mashaAllah the amount of money given was quite a lot  for working less than 9 hours :))))

Sixth Day - 21th, Resting Day
I didn't go anywhere today, I was sooo tired because I lack sleep in the previous days (although it was worth it!). I had a really nice sleep at night and slept again as soon as the class finished. Ate the rendang daging that they gave me for iftaar.

Seventh Day - 22th, Moroccan and new foreign friends
Went to the masjid with Amira, helped with the cooking (just a little!). Ate chicken curry and Indonesian bakwan! HAahaha. After Taraweeh prayer, we got invited by the lady from the Moroccan restaurant to have some tea, chocolates, and cookies. Met Sumayya from Italy who shared her life as a traveller and her journey in learning languages. She said her goal is to speak 25 languages! We also met Rachel/Nisrin who is an American married to a Moroccan. Her journey towards Islam moved our hearts, it made us realized that Allah gives guidance to whoever He wants to :) We just arrived in the dorm at 12! Hahaha.

Eighth Day - 23th, Another chill day in the dorm
Class ends at 1 a.m and I slept a lot. Resting day.
Had my iftaar in the room with the food I kept because I am too lazy to go out :(

Ninth Day - 24th
I don't know I forgot -_-"a but alhamdulillah.

Tenth Day - 25th 
Had my iftar in the dorm again, Jum'ah mubarak!

Eleventh Day - 26th, Bangladesh
Went to the mosque. Ate Bangladesh foods (biryani rice, chickens, and idk?) with hundreds of Muslims. Made new friends! Staying overnight. Always love the feeling and atmosphere. I received an Eid gift (already?) from Mbak Nila, Iram's mom (Korean-Indonesian kid) alhamdulillahhhh.

Twelfth Day - 27th, Pakistani & Cukkumi
Tried pakoras? and other Pakistani foods. The mosque is always full every weekend, feels like a whole new family! I went out to eat cukkumi with Indonesians, it's a stir-fried octopus with satay-sate-like sauce and cheese-almond-pizza. Amazing.

Thirteenth Day - 28th, Imam Al Bukhari
Came back to my daily life routines and reality. Had my iftar with Amira, eat our favourite kyeran bab with cheese, milk, tuna, and kurmas. Alhamdulillah. I also learned about Imam Al-Bukhari and started to read "Summarized Shahih Al-Bukhari in Arabic-English" that I borrowed some time ago. Mesmerized!! MashaAllah may Allah always bless him. You can read his collection of authentic hadith too here https://sunnah.com/bukhari/1
Narrated 'Umar bin Al-Khattab:I heard Allah's Messenger (ï·º) saying, "The reward of deeds depends upon the intentions and every person will get the reward according to what he has intended. So whoever emigrated for worldly benefits or for a woman to marry, his emigration was for what he emigrated for."

Fourteenth Day - 29th, omg two weeks already????
OMG???? ALREADY??? WHY. SAD. :((((((((((( Nothing significant today, just another day to learn Korean up until 4 p.m. BUT. STILL. WHY. I don't want Ramadhan to end very soonnnnn :((((

Quick update: it was an amazing day MashAllah. After class, I went to climb the mountain behind our dorm with my Egyptian friend, Amira. We bought foods before and planning to just reflect and refresh our soul. We were talking about everything and listening to the Qur'an that I put in a high volume (since there's no people). We reflected a lot about how lucky we are and that Allah is so merciful. We listened to Al Mulk, Ar Rahman, and Ad Dhuha by Mouadh Ayachi and Muhammad Thaha. We realized how Allah has bestowed us with soooo many blessings... Mashaallah. Mashaallah. Now we see the sky in the different way, the universe as one creation of Allah, and how He is always taking care of us because He knows the best for us. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

Tuesday, May 01, 2018

Don't Be Like Most People

We all know that everything that we do, our prayer, salah, staying away from alcohol, pork, and adultery aren't doing anything for Allah, that is for ourselves, it saves us from making a fool of ourselves. Nothing we do benefit Allah, he is Qiyamuhu Binafsihi, he is the Most-Great. Every single thing that He prohibits from us is for our own sake. It is out of Allah's love for us that He made it so that when you love Him and do something for Him you're in essence of loving yourself and benefitting from Him.

If you look for the words "most people" in the Qur'an, you will find that most people 
"do not know", 7:189,  "do not give thanks", 2:243, 
and "do not believe" 11:17. 

And if you look for "most of them", 
you will find that most of them are "defiantly disobedient", 5:59, 
"ignorant" 6:111,  "turning away" 21:24, "do not reason" 29:23, 
and "do not listen, 8:21.

Don't you want to be among the number of a few people? Dear brothers and sisters?:')
Narrated Anas:
The Prophet said:
“My Lord says, ‘If My slave comes nearer to me for a span, I go nearer to him for a cubit; and if he comes nearer to Me for a cubit, I go nearer to him for the span of outstretched arms; and if he comes to Me walking, I go to him running."
On the authority of Abu Harayrah (may Allah be pleased with him), who said that the Prophet (Allah bless him and give him peace) said: Allah the Almighty said:
"I am as My servant thinks I am. I am with him when he makes mention of Me.
If he makes mention of Me to himself, I make mention of him to Myself; and
if he makes mention of Me in an assembly, I make mention of him in an
assembly better than it. And if he draws near to Me an arm’s length, I draw
near to him a fathom’s length. And if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at

It was related by al-Buhkari (also by Muslim, at-Tirmidhi and Ibn-Majah).
Imam Nawawi’s 40 Hadith Qudsi
He loves us so much, don't you realize that?
May all of us are blessed in the upcoming Ramadhan. :)

p.s - few sources -

Saturday, March 31, 2018

My First Month in Korea as a Muslim

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"Think about your life and daily routines. 
What is the reason of your existence?

Are you meant to study half your life just to work the other half?
Be attached to people just to get your heart broken?
Get buried in the ground after all your worldly achievements,
like nothing ever happened?

Don't you think there's a purpose of your stay on earth?
Something that will result in what happens after your death?
Just stop for a while and think about it.

Perhaps you will realise life is nothing but a temporary illusion 
that fooled people into believing in the creation instead of the Creator.

There is more to your life. You have a much greater purpose.
Don't lose yourself by falling into delusions of this world.
Re-awaken your soul to its purpose. " 

February 19th, 2018, was the day when I arrived in Korea for the second time. If you're one of my readers, you know that I've visited Korea last year during vacation. But this time is different, now I am living in Korea as a KGSP student, university-student-to-be, a Muslimah in a strange country. I am currently studying the Korean language in Silla University before going to Korea University in Seoul, my dream university (for undergraduate, after Oxford University :p). It has been more than a month yet it still feels like a dream to me. I remember the days when I was in grade 12, I was holding my dreams so high every single day that I sometimes thought that I will never reach it. But Allah gave me so much more than I have ever wished for. 

"Be the kind of person who helps others
find the important things they've lost in life- their Deen, 
their smile, their hope, and their courage." 

My flight scheduled at 3 pm on Sunday, I needed to take three planes and two transfers: Jakarta-Singapore-Seoul-Busan. The NIIED (KGSP) bought the ticket for me so I couldn't change the schedule. I remembered, the day before my departure, I was having a fever and flu all of sudden. I was in very good condition before. I went to the hospital with my parents just because of the severe temperature in my body. We got the medicines, antibiotics, and etc just 4 hours before departure. I don't know if it's some kind of pre-home-sickness, nervousness or something but as soon as I arrived in Singapore, the fever is gone HAHAHAHA. Maybe the thought of leaving home was so overwhelming that I am feeling the pressure inside. I was worried whether I'll manage to survive in a harsh world of Korea and the bunch of obstacles that I will face academically, spiritually, physically, or socially, especially as a Muslimah, as a hijabi.

Did I feel any home-sickness, cultural shock, or anything? Surprisingly, no. It's more than a month already and I didn't cry even once. Yet? Idk. Yes, I did cry before leaving Indonesia, it's not because I am regretting my choice but as I said, the thought of living alone in an unknown world as a stranger is quite suffocating. But here I am, alhamdulillah. I do miss Indonesia, I miss my family, friends in deeds and deen!!! and ofc the foods (FOR THE SAKE OF SAMBAL BAWANG, AYAM PENYET, AYAM GEPREK AND NASI PADANG). Wkwkwk. The halal foods masha'Allah. I rarely eat chickens and beef here because not everything is halal. But good for me, I eat more vegetables and seafood here, I am (trying to) live a healthy life and walk around more. I was so lazy when I live in Indonesia because everything is sooooo easy and comfortable there. Halal foods everywhere, cheap transportations (a.k.a Gojek) who are willing to transport you from one place to another place, or my favourite... delivering our favourite foods at a VERY reasonable price. Oh, how I love Indonesia. I never left my comfort zone my whole life before.

Living abroad as a student before I even reach 20 is a dream come true. Living in a society where the majority is non-muslims (even atheists, to be precise) surely is a different challenge. Korea is a country where the majority of people are eating pork like I eat chickens in daily life and drink soju like I drink water on a daily basis. That's why I always said that studying abroad in Korea is both a trial and a blessing for me. I am proud of my religion. I am very proud of Islam and being a Muslim. Billions of people in the darkness and Allah chose you to be guided by His mercy. How can you not fall in love with His mercy? The love and pride that I have in my faith grow bigger and bigger it came to the point where I reflected on a lot of things, blessings and privileges that I have in Indonesia. I can find halal foods almost everywhere, literally everywhere. I can pray wherever I like: we have a lot of mosques and mushalla. I can hear adzan 5 times a day which soothes our soul. I didn't experience any weird look or discrimination because the whole majority are doing the same thing as I am, wearing the same clothing as I am, practising the same deen as I am.

"Being sinful is not something to be proud about,
and being righteous is nothing to be arrogant about."

I learned (and still) learned how to represent our deen the way it should be presented every single day. Although I am not perfect; my clothing is still not the way it is should be, my act and behaviour haven't yet portrayed what Prophet Muhammad SAW taught us to do, my speech hasn't benefited any of them, but at least I am trying to learn about myself and my religion more than I have ever done when I still have all those privileges. I seek refuge from Allah from any of my mistakes and wrongdoings. When I first came here on vacation, I never had this kind of thoughts. Well yes, I do have, but not this deep. Some of my friends never heard nor have a Muslim friend before, they told me they are actually afraid of Islam/Muslim because of what the media portrayed. All they have is bad thoughts and impressions. Well no wonder, I am not surprised at all. Even if I can't do a big thing in the future, at least I hope, my existence in Korea could help people understand more about the true Islam: it's not a religion of oppression, terrorism, or whatever you call it.

I got a lot of questions about Islam and hijab. The most common questions that I got so far are: "What?! You pray five times a day??? Wow you're so religious." I am not! Sometimes I wonder how performing five daily prayers can make you religious. It's obligatory. I am far from pious. I am just doing the basic thing that we should be doing as a Muslim. Or, "Do you have to wear that thing (hijab) every day? Can you take it off?" Yes??? and... No??? Wearing a hijab is my own choice and none of us is oppressed. We love hijaaab. Sometimes I laughed at how stupid the news that media makes about us. The news about us is so stupid that sometimes I and my hijabi friends (KGSP in Silla) make jokes about it. Rather than being offended, we laughed a lot to see all those stupid conspiracies. Well sorry to say, just my thoughts. "You can't eat pork?" or "Why can you eat chicken and beef but not *that* chicken and beef?" Yaaa because...why ya??? =)) Hahahaha.

"For you, I pray may your heart always 
be connected to the one who made it."

It's not easy to live in Korea as a Muslim. You will have a fewer option of foods and sometimes people will think you're strange; the way you dress, the way you eat, the way you do anything. But it's nothing about being strange, it's just that they're not getting used to it. And it's okay, we can't please everyone either. You could have the best intentions, and there would still be some, who will think the worst of you. Nevertheless, living in a non-religious country as a Muslim shouldn't discourage you from practising Islam. It shouldn't be an excuse for us to leave the teaching of Islam, our way of life. Instead, we should be proud of our deen. For insha'Allah, insha'Allah I promise, it will worth it in the end. Insha'Allah. May Allah forgive our mistakes and make us among the people that He loves. I am nothing but a sinner, if Allah had no mercy on me I would have been doomed a long time ago. Astaghfirullah.

"And I did not create the Jinn and Mankind

except to worship me. [Qur'an 51-56]"

Friday, January 26, 2018

My KGSP-U 2018 Journey (Embassy Track)

Halo, semuanya!
Post ini aku tulis buat temen-temen yang nanya gimana caranya aku bisa kuliah di Korea dengan full scholarship. Alhamdulillah aku dapet kesempatan jadi salah satu grantee KGSP (Korean Government Scholarship Program)-Undergraduate 2018 dari Indonesia. KGSP itu beasiswa yang diberikan pemerintah untuk siapa aja yang pengen ngelanjutin studinya di Korea Selatan. Aku sendiri applied via Embassy Track, KGSP-U 2018 dari Indonesia total ada 6 orang: 3 embassy track/S1, 1 university track/S1, dan 2 associate degree/D2. Informasi lebih lanjut bias langsung cek studyinkorea.go.kr ya :)

WARNING: ini bakal panjang banget. ehehe. literally. very long. click continue reading!

Keinginan untuk study abroad itu udah ada sejak SD (ini blognya udah ada sejak aku SD kelas 6 which is waktu umur 12 tahun?). Dulu pengennya di Inggris, Belanda, Jerman, Australia, Amrik, dsb lahhh tapi makin banyak baca dan cari-cari tentang beasiswa makin sadar kalo kuliah di luar negeri itu gak semudah itu, ribet, dan yang pasti butuh biaya yang banyak. Akhirnya waktu SMA mulai cari-cari lagi tentang info-info beasiswa, waktu itu sih ngincer beasiswa dari MEXT/Monbukagakusho yang ke Jepang. So I studied Japanese for a few months karena niatin bener buat JLPT (tapi gak jadi hahaha) sampe anak kelas hafal dan udah males sama aku kayaknya liat aku ngoceh mulu kaya wibu :( #nooffense . Sempet juga ikut beberapa lomba bahasa Jepang untuk beginner waktu kelas 11 saking extranya sama Japanese. Hingga suatu ketika pada pertengahan tahun 2016 aku mulai ada di fase enek sama kanji soalnya buanyaaak dan susah banget :( dan.. ada beberapa hal yang bikin aku males sama Jejepangan hahahah. You know, people change~

Akhirnya waktu kelas 12, kelasnya kan diacak kan tuh ya, anak kelasku ini pada heboh nonton dan tukeran drama Korea. First of all, I never had any interest in korean dramas or kpop. Not even oppas they keep talking about. Tapi semenjak itu aku udah mulai ngelirik buat belajar Korean becauseee it's similar to Japanese, they said, and it will be muchh easier to learn Korean if you've learned Japanese/Chinese before. BUT, WRONG HAHA. THEY LIED. SAMA SUSAHNYA :( ok mungkin aku yg terlalu bego tapi susah dan ga sama haha. Struktur kalimatnya sama sih, tapi beda kok. Beda. pls. Walaupun begitu, I enjoyed learning Korean more tbh because Hangeul is easier than bunch of Katakana, Hiragana, and Kanji. And I kinda meninggalkan belajar Japanese gradually as I enjoyed Korean more. Tepatnya pada bulan Agustus 2016, itu adalah waktu aku bingung dan galau banget antara.....

Monday, January 15, 2018

Counting Days

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The wait is over (well, not over yet tho I am still waiting for my visa and etc etc), the final result has been announced earlier this January. The road wasn't smooth, it was rather rough and full of rocks. I limped but He guides me 'till the end. I was being worried, doubtful, and indecisive but He convinces me to continue, to remember the reasons why I started.

I have one month left to officially become a KGSP 2018 scholar. Aside being busy applying for my visa, medical check-ups, preparing my entry to Korea, and the hectic-packing-ngeribetin-days, I spend some time hanging out with my friends and family. Hang-out, the thing that I rarely do because most of the time I like to spend my days at home. I really am a home person(?), anak rumahan maksudnya. Hahahah.

My side-kick, started talking about how I should keep contacting her like we always do everyday. About can I stay a bit longer and she started being possessive as always. Well, parting away is not really a big deal for us since our friendship has been nearly 5 years and we only met ONCE. On the way twice tomorrow. We are so getting used of this ldr-like (yuck!) friendship since the beginning.

My liqo friends also, the friends who always remind me about the world and Jannah, also my murabbi, mba Hesti, who never stops teaching us everything she knows. They're precious gems Allah brought me in this world. Even before my departure, she always reminds me to keep my prayer on time (which is so hard but I'm trying :'( ) and let our alumni there to make sure that I continue my liqo. Insha'Allah. Things will be different, prayers will be harder. Even to hold onto my deen will be both a trial and blessing. Alhamdulillah :)

Well, I hope that the universe will be good to you for the rest of the year and I truly hope you guys find the happiness you deserve and if you're going through any hardships, please hold on. There are better things to come so yeah as usual take care of yourselves.

I love you guys, a lot.

p.s : anyway, Insha'Allah I will write posts about my journey getting this scholarship as any of you have asked me through dm, email, and WhatsApp. I wish through this way I can help you to reach your dreams :) If I haven't write any, please refer to previous scholar and read the guidelines carefully before asking! Please check studyinkorea.go.kr or Kedubes Korea for Indonesia's website. Best of luck.