Officially Fifteen !!

GUYYSSS I AM OFFICIALLY FIFTEEN ON MONDAYYYY, 

2ND of DECEMBER!!!!

15

Am I really that old already?

Alhamdulillah, Allah has given me another day and let me breath in this beautiful world. :)

Thank you for my parents and my brothers for waking me up at mid night. Actually they thought that I have been sleeping when I was "trying to", so when they go upstairs and went into my room I suddenly said "oh God I am gonna laughing." to be honest, and then I blew the cake, I mean the candles. I am so happy that in my fifteenth birthday beside I got hundreds of wishes I also got a video and a record! Never happened in my life, not popular one.

The happy birthday video comes from my classmates, SwekCrew. SwekCrew is idk.... Let me explain it in my point of view. Er btw I am the first fan of them, I am a Swekcrewer x) /? So they're a group of stress creative people, they do lipsync and upload it on YouTube. I don't know maybe they're obsessed with Cherrybelle. But I am so grateful that they made a video for me /wipe tears/. I just don't understand why you guys named the video with "Maaf ya Feb" (read : sorry feb). But that's ok at least you guys used Taylor Swift's song "22" as you know that I am a Swifty!!!! And I am loving the paper thingssssss especially the "nganu". Makasiiiihhh yip Mudia, Indah, Tika, and Novi YOU GUYS ARE CRAZY♡♥♡♥ Here's the video!! Yip yip yip!

Stressed

I am not stressed out, but I do love desserts.

Well um I am stressed out, I have exams next week and I am still playing !!!

Eh.

Hey guys it's funny I just type "I have exams next week" on google.

And ping! *entry popped up* Someone just asked on Yahoo! Answer this question:

I have exams next week and I don't know how to prepare !? Help!!

lol silly.

Haha jk, God bless you.

/scrolling through the answers/

So...

You just helped buddy. *even though I didn't read the entire*

Love you guys bye I have to take a breath and let my brain decide /?

Firmoo Giveaway Winners

Hey guys, the Firmoo Giveaway is now officially closed!
There were 59 valid competitors who joined, it means there will be one more lucky winner! Yay! And now I've got the name of the winners already! *ba dum tss* The winners are picked randomly by Random.org . The first and second name appear will get a free pair glasses without shipping, and the third name is the lucky one who will get a free pair glasses including shipping!!
For the winners, I'll send you email as soon as I get the codes to be used on Firmoo.com .
By the way, thank you for everyone who joined this giveaway, I really appreciate your efforts!
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CONGRATULATIONS!!

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Hello my beloved readers!! And happy Swift-Day for Swifties! ^^

I recently got my left eye blurry, I might be too often use computers and mobile phones more than 2 hours per day. I just can't get rid of Twitter and games, many people can't. It's like drugs. By the way, I'm so excited because I hit 100 followers. As soon as I reached 100 followers I've planned to thank you all by hosting my very first giveaway! 

This giveaway is open INTERNATIONALLY until September 30, 2013, so wherever you are you can also participate this giveaway! This giveaway is sponsored by Firmoo Global Online Optical Store (click : Firmoo.com) ! I started to read some reviews from people about Firmoo. They said Firmoo is the best affordable glasses website and they satisfied with the quality, prices, and services. I thought it would be great to giving away my readers a chance to win a pair of fashionable glasses! Prescription and non prescription also available in here!

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Complicated - Part 1 {Fiction}

Hello I am a grade 9 student now!!! and I am happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time. It's miserable and magical. So, um UN 2014 is closer... And I really have to work harder for this cause I don't want to replay the same mistakes. Pardon me of every single things I did and pray for me puh-lease :) By the way I'm so happyyyyyyyy that CHELSEA was here at Indonesia and play against Indonesia All Star at GBK. Unfortunately, I have to stayed at home and I was chanting like a weirdo as long as they play. I am not fully satisfied bcs there's no Torres, Mata, Oscar, Luiz, and other players that was playing for Confederations Cup. Oh and Lampard & Cech didn't play yesterday :( So sad. But at least I could see Hazard, Lukaku, Ramires, Ivanovic, etc. It was a good game, though not special bcs there's less of attack from Indonesia. I hope it will be another lesson so Timnas Indonesia will be better and better. The full time ended with 8 goal for Chelsea and 1 own goal for Indonesia. I just knew that the coach and one of player from Indonesia is the blues. And I really love the 3rd kit 2013/2014; it's not black. it's blue.

Blue is the color, football is the game

We're all together and winning is our aim

So cheer us through to the sun and rain

Cause Chelsea.. Chelsea is our name

Oh and by the way... I make a fiction series, the first part is down below... I'm a bit confused to name the title, so I named it "Complicated". Hehehe....

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Part 1 – Freshman Year

It was a warm sunny day in September, the lights even brighter than the sun. She has been waiting for this day, a brand new day in the freshman year as a college student. She wears her best shirt and jeans, and do her brunette in side braid like Katniss Everdeen.

Kara wasn’t one of the smart and diligent one, she’s not really good at almost all subtitles. But don’t ask me how good she is in music and theatre. This university has the most famous choir and theatre club. That’s why she always waiting for this day for years because this is the only way to reach her dream.

But she still had to follow math and science classes which she hates as much as she hates burritos. “I don’t understand with this university. Why we have to learn math and science, when will you think we could use algebra in real life? Do you remember when we were taught to find the x and blah blah blah in junior high school?” said Kara while walking in rush holding bunch of books towards the class.

“Me too. I just want to be a public speaker though. You know like Ellen Degeneres! Hahaha that would be crazy, I’ll have a show called ‘Rebecca Russell Show’ every Saturday night. Make sure you don’t miss every single episodes or I’ll come to your house and make you pay!”

“Interesting. And I’ll be like ‘Oh my God! oh my God! Rebecca Russell has just visited my house ‘cause I miss one of her show’ Hahahaha!”

“Don’t worry, I’ll invite you to my show someday. Hahaha! Of course to sing your favorite songs in junior high school, ‘The Adam Higuain’ song.”

“Oh my God that nerd! I heard he went here to, didn't he?”

“Yes, and he took Natural Science which is including astrophysics, pathology, pharmacology, plant sciences, zoologi, genetics, chemistry, biochemi—wait, there he is!”

Suddenly, Kara hit a guy and the books falling. “I’m sorry I don’t know you were there. It’s heavy. Sorry.” said Kara politely—just in case if he is one of the sophomore, remember it’s their first day. The guy just glance at her. “Sorry, I am Kara Thornfield—freshman.”

“I don’t ask for your name. Stupid.” And he just walked away like nothing has happened.

“What did he want!!? Not apologize but called me a stupid instead!”

“Chill out, Kara...at least he is adorable.”

“So what’s the point of being a handsome guy but has a bad attitude?!”

“I didn’t say he was handsome...”

“There’s no difference.”

“It’s 9.15, and I think we’re in wrong way, it’s History Class.”

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They were in a opposite direction and ran towards the Math Class. They are really in trouble on their first day. It’s not good.

Hello June! Hella BRISTALESTIC !

Hello June!

Time walks so fast huh? Well , as I always said on my last post on March, too busy at school all the time. Moreover I will have exams next weekkkk!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. It's not all because I'm not ready yet, but it means I'll move to another class in grade 9 which makes me sad :(((( , counting the day, wishing the headmaster change the rules or whatevs. I'll miss them, Bristalestic, even though we can still meet everyday but it's just.... uh. Ikr I'm forget, Bristalestic is the name of my class, 8Bristalestic {Brilliant, Smart, Talented, and Fanstastic}. I loveeeeeeeeee them. *hugs*

By the way if u are one of my classmates in the previous class, then you should know why. I don't want if you then call me a selfish(even tho I am selfish) and blame me with those lies. Things you have to know are ; even though I don't want to go back to previous class doesn't mean I'm forget you, I just don't have things to say. I write this post bcs I just want them to know that I really love 'em, I do.

It was really great to meet 'em, they really know how they should be around me. Best classmate ever. I remember the very first week in 8Bristalestic, it was really quite. Really quiet. Until the second week, it was like..........asdfghjkl so awful. I remember when we held the first "gowes" (?), riding bicycle together to certain place. They were going to Candi Sambisari and went fishing together. Unfortunately, I couldn't come because my parents didn't allow me. Urggh.

Otome Games! 乙女ゲーム

Hey!

Feeling so sad can't update this blog since the last post on 2012, doesn't mean I didn't check this blog. Yes, I frequently open this blog to check out who are leaving comments or who are now following me. Thanks! I've planned to publish a New Year Post but I didn't. Too lazy and too busy to sitting in front of the computer for more than an hour, it hurts my eyessss. I was having a lot of hard day, homeworks, tasks, and everything, I just can't get rid of it. I have a lot of things to tell you, but seems I can't, I lost the note. I forgot. Heheee~~~ You may didn't notice, but I have changed this blog a bit. No, not the template (will be change it soon.), not either the font or everything like that. I'm just make a decisions last week... a big decision for my entire life and the day after tomorrow, the afterlife, or whatever. I don't have to say it, just if you're notice. I wish it's a right decision.

By the way, I'm getting so addicted to Otome Games lately. Omg it drives me crazy. A lot. Right, Otome Games(乙女ゲーム otome gēmu) is a video game that is toward to a female market, where one of the main goals, besides the plot goal, is to develop a romantic relationship between the female player character and one of several male, or occasionally female characters. It's a visual novels, which is you as the main player determine the direction of the story by choosing the option. Actually, the only thing makes me fully addicted to Otome Games beside the plot is...the admirable guys!! x)) Manga guys are cute.

The very first game I played is from Voltage, Inc, "In Your Arms Tonight" (You can download it in Play Store). Sadly, I could just play the Prologue, which is free, and I instantly addicted! It costs about $4 each character (they provides up to 6 characters). In the main story, we can choose who we can get along with, even all (but yet we still have to pay). Same as the main story, we still have to pay if we want to play the Epilogue. So, I'm going to tell you each of series I have played. *cough*

Hatred is Madness of the Heart ~ Lord Byron

H-E-Y

You know, every new post I always start with "Hey!" "Hello!" "I miss this blog blah blah blah.." and act like oh-I-miss-this-blog-so-much , but right now I don't feel like to use that strange-awkward-creepy-happy voice, I mean just for now and maybe some other day. Although God gave me a lot of valuable moments, chances, and surprises this month, I also face a lot of problems (not much, i'm just exaggerating) which a lot of people don't know. They don't know much about me, they just pretend. It's not a big probs, it's just me which makes it bigger, don't you ever do that too? So that everyone would keep watching on you, and they say nice words for you such as "are you okay?" "tell me, maybe I can help you." "it's okay, (your name)..." "It's not your fault, it's......" "I don't mean to bother you, but, would you like to tell me what's happening?" "God always beside you, don't worry." and so on. It doesn't mean I dislike those words which most of them are a lie, a fake attention  pure-hearted attention. I hope you don't misunderstanding, those words are nice and makes me feeling better, I mean "thanks for your (I hope it's not fake) attention". Please be honest, have you ever give true attention you gave to your friends which in heart-breaking moments? I bet yes, me too. But, have you ever give a fake attention just because you want to be look nicer. K, it's actually a confession. Sometimes.

I am getting closer with some people recently and I realized something that you might have realized much time before me. As examples; have you ever feel nervous and you think someone will do better than you? Imagine you are in a concert, you were soooo nervous but when you see another participant it was like oh yeah they are good. Yeah so-so. (This is what I feel) but when my turn... I can't do this, kill me now. How if I make a mistakes and people will bla-bla-bla... They're good and I'm not. But in another side, I want to show my skill, I know I'm good enough, I know I can do that, I just want to make them proud. Always.  I told my friends how I felt (also a participant), I told them how I want to end this as fast as I can and just go home, prayed bad things so the concert will be canceled. Guess what my friend did? She told me she was as nervous as me, she thinks she can't do that(even I think she's the best, and I know she knows it) and I was like DUDE, LOOK AT YOURSELF. YOU ARE AMAZING, STOP COMPLAINING, I KNOW I'M NOT EVEN BETTER THAN YOU. I just want to be the last participant. But being the last is worse, it was like the only person who waits in the station at the midnight alone(horror movies). But in the end, we have to do it whatever happen. I'm remembering my experiences, mix it. I remember a lot of quote say : you are depends on what you think. So I start think deeply, find out what the actual meaning of that quote. No..no.. I use my brain because I didn't found it on google, ouch. I don't know the real meaning but...I think we are what they think about me, it same like they are depends on what we think. I JUST CAN'T EXPLAIN WHAT I WANT TO SAY. Just if you know what I mean.

I really want to share the story in detail, but I can't because I think it's too private and hurt others. I just hate it...I hate it so much when my anger turns into tears. I feel weak. A small anger starts from mood, bad mood destroys everything, and you know why girls get badmood easily...yeah. Before you judge me because someone judge me, I don't  want you think if I never judge someone who might have judge someone. Complicated. Hell-yeah I know we must have did that or maybe right now doing that. But whatever, nobody's care & nobody's perfect. We say "don't judge the other" when ourselves judging others. We say "Slap two faces of a hypocrite.", now who has two faces? As I said...we ever did that. Me too. And sometimes I feel hypocrite when I think I always do the right things at all...when I actually not. Nobody wants to claim themselves as a wrong person at all. Some of them maybe don't want to claim themselves wrong, even when they totally wrong. They will always  think they have did a good job. Not all. I don't want to judge just in the dark side which you can easily say "HAHA you just judge them in one side!! stupid.". In another side, judging and being hypocrite is somehow good. WHAT?! WHICH PART IS GOOD?! 

Before I tell you my opinion. According to dictionary...

    judg-ment  noun

1.	an act or instance of judging.

2.	the ability to judge, make a decision, or form an opinion objectively, authoritatively, and wisely, esp. in matters affecting action; good sense; discretion: a man of sound judgment.

    hyp-o-crite noun

1. a person who pretends to have virtues, moral orreligious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she doesnot actually possess, especially a person whoseactions  
2. belie stated beliefs.a person who feigns some desirable or publiclyapproved attitude, especially one whose private life,opinions, or statements belie his or her publicstatements.

source : google

THIS IS WHAT I GOT.

1. Critical thinking.

2. You don't know how people think about you before someone is judge you. Hey, don't you want to be a better human? Self-assessment.
3. You know who has two faces. *meme face*

4. You can make a decision.

Poor me. I'm forget what I'm going to write actually. Smh.

yeah, that's true. Love takes our tears.

By the way, WE ARE SO CLOSE TO NEW YEAR 2013!! okay I know...I know...I'm so sad. So damn sad. I don't have any plan for new year, this year doesn't like the past few years. First, I don't gather with my big fam, they do their own bussiness. And I'm here just with my mom, dad, and lil bro. Maybe I'll celebrate new year with my grandma & grandpa, I know it will be super boring. But somehow it's just good. And about my fam, they're stay in Jakarta and I'm not going to Jakarta this year. The other thing which makes me so disappointed is...Miss KidZania Jakarta 2009-2011 is held a reunion TODAY. I wonder how happy they are, ah I miss them so much. Although I'm not a winner, yea just a semi-finalist but at least I got experiences.

Talking about 2013, I often see a lot of people do "wishlist" every months. And as long as I remember maybe I'm just joining one or maybe two hashtag which tell our wishlist. Not long after that I'm just thinking, why we have to do that wishlist every month and write it on Twitter. I mean, if we want our wish granted...we can pray and try, not by write it on Twitter. But that's ok, there is no harm in it right? So, why don't we try to write our wishlist for 2013. (I bet people will write their wishlist soon.). I've set up a plan for 2013, I hate it so much when sometimes I made a plan that didn't go well. I would love to do craft, yeah did it sometimes; paper, recycling, styrofoam, unwanted stuffs. When they day came... "ok, I'll do it tomorrow...tomorrow...yeah next week maybe." and end up with do nothing but Twitter instead. I wish I could do quality activities in the upcoming holidays, doesn't like this holiday which just end up with sleep, eat, twitter-ing ( a lot) , and watching movies... so wasting time! I also hope that I will have some Chelsea FC Stuffs next year. I don't want anything but happiness!

Guys, what's your plan for 2013? :) SEE YA ON THE NEXT YEAR! HAPPY NEW YEAR! *lotsaluv*

image source : google, tumblr

Goodbye 13, Hello 14!

"December 2nd 2012"

Heyaaaa! Uh after almost 2 months I didn't show up here, yeah you know students task; exam, exam, exam, homework, sleep, eat, play, twitter-twitter-twitter. I miss you already and I bet you don't miss me ya? WHO WANTS TO READ THIS STUPID WEIRD BLOG. lol. But it doesn't matter, I will always love you guys, as always :') unrequited love. HAHA no. Although I don't post anything, I still read your comments(which is about follow and some compliments&insults) and replying those e-mails in my inbox, oh and of course Twitter everyday. (now I know why I got bad grades, it's YOU; Twitter.) I post this with reasons, it's because my 14th birthday on December 2nd 2012 (read: 2-12-2012)! I love 2012! It's a good date, really a good date, but it's not as good as that. First, at monday I have an exam. Second, there is no difference with today and another day. Three, I wake up earlier than my parents, so the surprise is somewhat chaotic. 

Anyway, there are a lot of things I miss. I don't get a wishes from one of my special person, it's Yoya; Aurora Desi Ananda. I don't know where she is, we both don't know (me and beyi; BerlianaFaradisa), we are so close. But one of us was just like...gone. Make it bigger, Feb.  Well if you read it as you know, we don't care for who you are and about your real name. It doesn't matter, as long as you're nice, we are ready to see you again. Whatever happen with you. Do you remember my birthday? It's today, and the next day is Beyi's. You don't remember? You forget us, do you? And your birthday...will be at December 13th. We used to talk like an idiot. I remember the jokes. (read this post: Thirteenth Birthday! ). After the tragedy, which I don't want to remember, I have felt something different with you, YOU... slowly stay away from us until the day. BAM! You gone. Ah, and those friends who hate her. As you know...whoever she is, I still care.

Sooooo....let's forget it.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS YEAR, DEAR 13!

It was an amazing year and so impressive. It was just fascinating; all the single day. Every day was valuable for me. And I had a lot of new experiences with "13". I can't forget what I've been through last year. Thanks 13!

It's so sad I can't post it at December 2nd instead today. I have to collect the pictures, yeaaaa the wishes! Thank you so much for it, I feel so honored and happy all the day. Especially when they put my name on their BBM Contact, it's cute. Thanks you so much, may Allah always bless you! Hell yeah December 13th is Taylor Swift's birthday,13 is one of my favorite number too! Hahaha. The difference between last year post is the language, I use slang languages there which is....weird. But that's okay, I'm still learning now. I don't know, maybe this one is quite long...long... Well, as you know, I'm still replying the wishes while i'm writing this. IT'S A SUPER BOSS FEELING. Hahaha superb, it helps me a lot because it makes me so happy...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TSWIZZLE!

TAYLOR SWIFT MY SPARKLING FEARLESS QUEEN!

I love how you write the lyrics; touching, real life story, real love story.

I'm just wondering if someday you'll married with your prince charming. And we'll miss your teenage. And your son(s) or daughter(s) will be a superstar. 

I promise; I will introduce you to my child, how you make my life worthful. I just want to share with my child; i've become their age.
Oh Taylor, I know you'll never read this post but...I really miss your curly hair! However, you're still gorgeous with straight hair, really...
 Love youuuu !

(Swifties know why I type it with Red color.)

Another wishes...

Happy birthday for Beyi and Yoya!

Berliana Faradisa : December 5th 2012

Aurora Desi Ananda : December 13th 2012

I miss the old us, girls!

I wish I can go back, when we still together. aw.

yoya looks pale, but still cute.

it's Beyi. Just took it from her facebook page.

and happy birthday to all of the people who birth on December!

Yeah, that's it. I want to thank for all the wishes, I can't give anything but respect. Here you are some of the wishes; I'm sorry because I can't upload all the pics. It's wasting time. Hehe, but THANKS THANKS AND THANKS! :)

Whoaaaa... oh and I was just remember, I didn't capture the wishes on my facebook, thanks for the wishes {}

"You'll find as you grow older that you weren't born such a great while ago after all. The time shortens up." -William Dean Howells

"We have no choice of what color we're born or who our parents are or whether we're rich or poor. What we do have is some choice over what we make of our lives once we're here." - Mildred Taylor

"When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice." -Cherokee Expression

"Youth is a circumstance you can't do anything about. The trick is to grow up without getting old." -Frank Lloyd Wright.

HAVE A GREAT DAY ON DECEMBER! CHEERS!

delicious ambiguity

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beggining, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity." -Gilda Radner