A Seacht Déag

"When you're seventeen at early twenties, that's the time you're trying to work out who you are. If you're trying to make some kind of artistic or creative impact, that's the age when you start to figure out how to do that." - Daniel Radcliffe

Well said, Potter Dan! Guess what kind of post I'd be writing each December? Exactly, adding one number to my age and guess what, someone has been recognized to be an official citizen. Say what? "Wow such a nonsense congratulations!". Thank you. Oh finally, my precious identity and driving license cards. My precious piece of paper. Then what's with that happy girl in winter picture and Dan's quote and you being seventeen years old anyway? Because hella dude it's frickin' SEVENTEEN! One more than sixteen, or seven more than ten. Err. No, no sweet seventeen please, I ain't sweet. I am seventeen. The good things about seventeen is that you’re not sixteen. Sixteen goes with the word sweet, and I am so far from sweet. Life at best is bittersweet. /Whip my hijab back and forth/

Seventeen, only comes once in a lifetime

Don't it just fly by wild and free

Goin' anyway the wind blew baby

Seventeen, livin' on crazy dreams

Rock and Roll and faded blue jeans

And standin' on the edge of everythin'

Seventeen

Tim McGraw

I am not as concerned about me either. Neither do I realize. But thinking about happiness, I came up with the word "smallpox"; if you catch it too soon, it can completely ruin your constitution. Such a nice choice of words. You are very welcome. Actually, my family and relatives had very low expectations of me, about me dreaming such dreams, and they really had a point. I am such a big problem at seventeen and throughout my whole life. Or even if I had a kid like me, I would have those same expectations.

"But you don't know this…seventeen never knows it. At seventeen dreams do satisfy because you think the realities are waiting for you further on. Now, Anne, don't look as if you were trying to understand. Seventeen can't understand." -L.M Montgomery, Anne of Avonlea

Thank you Madame Montgomery, my all time favorite author, to remind me that a seventeen years old would never understand. Well I hope I will be more critical and realistic to such issues. By the way, thanks a bunch for the wishes and gifts. And a special greeting for my five obnoxious friends whom I thought had forgotten about my birthday and all of sudden gave me such a shock by appearing in my room with birthday cake, gray balloons, and my gold paper you cut without my permission. Who posted my very embarrassing picture wearing mukena in school group. I hate you, because love is such a strong word.

Ew.

A Smooth Sea Never Made A Skillful Sailor

Salaam! Peace be upon you!

It's almost the end of 2014 and I've been abandoning this blog since March or 9 months. It's December 21st, it means I am already 16 years old and 19 days. Birthday is nothing though, it's nothing more than just a number. I am so thankful for the surprise, prayers, and gifts. Thank you so much for Willa, Rama, Shinta, Arum who won't talk to me on my birthday and all of sudden 5 days later they entered my room and sprayed yellow thingy and foams. You should know that it was 1 pm I was going to do maths and I haven't even taken a bath. But yet I am so happy. 

Talking about birthday, it reminds me of the last 3 years when I was still in Junior High School. I remember how my friends treated me and the videos and else. It hurts somehow to think that we're not in the same school anymore. But life is life. I am no more a Junior High School student, I am officially SMA Negeri 6 Yogyakarta student! It is not the first choice but I am so grateful for Allah's plan. I was ungrateful at first, but soon I realized Allah is the best of planners. He puts me around really good friends who I considered as a family too. This year is the 13th Lustrum of SMA Negeri 6 Yogyakarta, and we already held 13 events and the last one is SANSEKERTA Anniversary Live Music on 18 of December! I am so proud of being one of them. They taught me a lot of things especially on organize such events. Lustrum XII SMA Negeri 6 Yogyakarta was impressively impressive! (www.symphonylustrum13.com) Words cannot describe how happy I am being one of them!

I am barely a year in High School but I have gained a lot of lessons and memories I will never forget. I remember the very first day when I stepped on the hallway in my bulky uniform and walking like some idiotic inexperienced kid. I remember how I met my classmates X MIA MODU5AN and how we introduced ourselves. I remember all of the events we've been through throughout this 6 months. I remember how I always feel like I've known them for years. It has only been 6 months but we took tons of group selfies, we argued, we fight, but soon we will make it up again. I remember the details, I remember it all too well. I never thought I will be this happy. I am way too excited. They're blessings.

If you remember my last posts about "Strange Goals and Aspirations", I am going to tell you that being in this school is like the gate of my dreams. #tsah #geezwhatareutalkingabout . I thought I was going to be a scientist or an astronaut when I was 6. But hell yeah I know it will only forever be nothing more than just a dream. But in this school, I can learn Astronomy deeper than I have ever imagined by entering the extra astronomy class which is so exciting! Astronomy is so attractive as the way it is. I was planning on buying a Celestron Telescope but my wallet doesn't support so...whatever though at least finally I can do and learn what I love.

The second thing is I am so proud of being KIR Muda Wijaya team. SMA Negeri 6 Yogyakarta is famous for its nickname "The Research School of Jogja" and I couldn't ask for anything better. I am so grateful that after being in so many failures I'd never tell in the past years, I and Dinda (she's my partner in doing research) achieved our very first Gold Medal for Physics category in Yogyakarta Science Project Competition on 18-19 December 2014. I am not yet a scientist nor a physicist (I even failed on Physics exam). Without the help of amazing people I've ever met: Mbak Dewi, Mbak Fiesha, Mas Zakaria, Mas Afif, and people who always supported us, we are nothing more than just a potato. I still don't know how much failures I have to pass next before reaching the success because I believe there is a success behind every failure.  They inspired us so much. Rather than that, I wish that it will be a stepping stone to reach success. Again, Allah is almighty and the best of planners. Alhamdulillah...

"By Al-Asr (the time). Verily, man is in the loss. Except those who believe and do righteous good deeds, and recommend one another to the truth and recommend one another to patience." (Quran 103)

Well, the funny thing is I only considered them as hobbies, which is good though. I am still confused about choosing the major......thought I will choose Interior Design. Hahaha ikr my brain is so messed up, I don't even know what the hell am I doing right now. I used to think to choose to engineer but I don't think it fits me well. I am nothing more than a red snot-nosed kid who seeks for experiences. If only you know how some people underestimate me and keep saying that I can do nothing but sleep and eat. And how some people think that I will never ever reach my dream. You were wrong if you are saying that my life is smoother than yours. You were wrong if you think I never feel useless. You were wrong if you think I never cried for such things, I did. But a smooth sea never made a skillful sailor. And I am grateful Allah has put me in this position, I believe and trust in Allah's plan.

"Semua orang punya jatah gagal, habiskan jatahmu di waktu muda." -Dahlan Iskan

Officially Fifteen !!

GUYYSSS I AM OFFICIALLY FIFTEEN ON MONDAYYYY, 

2ND of DECEMBER!!!!

15

Am I really that old already?

Alhamdulillah, Allah has given me another day and let me breath in this beautiful world. :)

Thank you for my parents and my brothers for waking me up at mid night. Actually they thought that I have been sleeping when I was "trying to", so when they go upstairs and went into my room I suddenly said "oh God I am gonna laughing." to be honest, and then I blew the cake, I mean the candles. I am so happy that in my fifteenth birthday beside I got hundreds of wishes I also got a video and a record! Never happened in my life, not popular one.

The happy birthday video comes from my classmates, SwekCrew. SwekCrew is idk.... Let me explain it in my point of view. Er btw I am the first fan of them, I am a Swekcrewer x) /? So they're a group of stress creative people, they do lipsync and upload it on YouTube. I don't know maybe they're obsessed with Cherrybelle. But I am so grateful that they made a video for me /wipe tears/. I just don't understand why you guys named the video with "Maaf ya Feb" (read : sorry feb). But that's ok at least you guys used Taylor Swift's song "22" as you know that I am a Swifty!!!! And I am loving the paper thingssssss especially the "nganu". Makasiiiihhh yip Mudia, Indah, Tika, and Novi YOU GUYS ARE CRAZY♡♥♡♥ Here's the video!! Yip yip yip!

Goodbye 13, Hello 14!

"December 2nd 2012"

Heyaaaa! Uh after almost 2 months I didn't show up here, yeah you know students task; exam, exam, exam, homework, sleep, eat, play, twitter-twitter-twitter. I miss you already and I bet you don't miss me ya? WHO WANTS TO READ THIS STUPID WEIRD BLOG. lol. But it doesn't matter, I will always love you guys, as always :') unrequited love. HAHA no. Although I don't post anything, I still read your comments(which is about follow and some compliments&insults) and replying those e-mails in my inbox, oh and of course Twitter everyday. (now I know why I got bad grades, it's YOU; Twitter.) I post this with reasons, it's because my 14th birthday on December 2nd 2012 (read: 2-12-2012)! I love 2012! It's a good date, really a good date, but it's not as good as that. First, at monday I have an exam. Second, there is no difference with today and another day. Three, I wake up earlier than my parents, so the surprise is somewhat chaotic. 

Anyway, there are a lot of things I miss. I don't get a wishes from one of my special person, it's Yoya; Aurora Desi Ananda. I don't know where she is, we both don't know (me and beyi; BerlianaFaradisa), we are so close. But one of us was just like...gone. Make it bigger, Feb.  Well if you read it as you know, we don't care for who you are and about your real name. It doesn't matter, as long as you're nice, we are ready to see you again. Whatever happen with you. Do you remember my birthday? It's today, and the next day is Beyi's. You don't remember? You forget us, do you? And your birthday...will be at December 13th. We used to talk like an idiot. I remember the jokes. (read this post: Thirteenth Birthday! ). After the tragedy, which I don't want to remember, I have felt something different with you, YOU... slowly stay away from us until the day. BAM! You gone. Ah, and those friends who hate her. As you know...whoever she is, I still care.

Sooooo....let's forget it.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS YEAR, DEAR 13!

It was an amazing year and so impressive. It was just fascinating; all the single day. Every day was valuable for me. And I had a lot of new experiences with "13". I can't forget what I've been through last year. Thanks 13!

It's so sad I can't post it at December 2nd instead today. I have to collect the pictures, yeaaaa the wishes! Thank you so much for it, I feel so honored and happy all the day. Especially when they put my name on their BBM Contact, it's cute. Thanks you so much, may Allah always bless you! Hell yeah December 13th is Taylor Swift's birthday,13 is one of my favorite number too! Hahaha. The difference between last year post is the language, I use slang languages there which is....weird. But that's okay, I'm still learning now. I don't know, maybe this one is quite long...long... Well, as you know, I'm still replying the wishes while i'm writing this. IT'S A SUPER BOSS FEELING. Hahaha superb, it helps me a lot because it makes me so happy...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TSWIZZLE!

TAYLOR SWIFT MY SPARKLING FEARLESS QUEEN!

I love how you write the lyrics; touching, real life story, real love story.

I'm just wondering if someday you'll married with your prince charming. And we'll miss your teenage. And your son(s) or daughter(s) will be a superstar. 

I promise; I will introduce you to my child, how you make my life worthful. I just want to share with my child; i've become their age.
Oh Taylor, I know you'll never read this post but...I really miss your curly hair! However, you're still gorgeous with straight hair, really...
 Love youuuu !

(Swifties know why I type it with Red color.)

Another wishes...

Happy birthday for Beyi and Yoya!

Berliana Faradisa : December 5th 2012

Aurora Desi Ananda : December 13th 2012

I miss the old us, girls!

I wish I can go back, when we still together. aw.

yoya looks pale, but still cute.

it's Beyi. Just took it from her facebook page.

and happy birthday to all of the people who birth on December!

Yeah, that's it. I want to thank for all the wishes, I can't give anything but respect. Here you are some of the wishes; I'm sorry because I can't upload all the pics. It's wasting time. Hehe, but THANKS THANKS AND THANKS! :)

Whoaaaa... oh and I was just remember, I didn't capture the wishes on my facebook, thanks for the wishes {}

"You'll find as you grow older that you weren't born such a great while ago after all. The time shortens up." -William Dean Howells

"We have no choice of what color we're born or who our parents are or whether we're rich or poor. What we do have is some choice over what we make of our lives once we're here." - Mildred Taylor

"When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice." -Cherokee Expression

"Youth is a circumstance you can't do anything about. The trick is to grow up without getting old." -Frank Lloyd Wright.

HAVE A GREAT DAY ON DECEMBER! CHEERS!

Happy birthday MOM

Omg I know it's super late post! ..sorry mom

I should have posted it on March 9th 2012, but I don't have enough time to manage this blog.

HAPPY 38th BIRTHDAY MOM!! :D

Sometimes I really hate you

But I really love you as always

I love you so much

Because I know...

Wherever, whenever

You'll always there for me

Always there for support me

Whatever happen

I wish the best on your birthday

Longlife and full of laughter

Your smile....

Brighten than the sun...

Dear mom,

Your love is irreplaceable, I can't give you love as you give me.

I don't remember how does it feels when I still in your belly.

I just hear the stories from our family and friends. They said you always love me day or night. They said you always take care of me, whatever happen. No matter you're sick, you always take care of me, feed me, sing me good night song, and tell the stories. I love you as always...althought sometimes I hate you.

But I promise... I will give you the best as I can, because you worth it.

Someday... I'll make you proud! I promise mom...

I'll do my best!

Only one request...

Always beside me.